I was CHATTY

I was chatty after drinking these days. I mean usually after drinking it's either i sleep or i become a devil. Just these days i seem to talk instead of doing the usual. Hmmm.... The last time i was quite emo. Then yesterday it happen again. I seem to talk with tears coming out at wrong que's and my story doesn't make sense. Hahahah... it seems that i Begin the story and skip to the middle and suddenly it's the end. lolzzz....... Thank god i didn't do this in public. I was at home with a friend but it's still embarrassing nevertheless. She's back from Singapore but she's back there again today. 

I was talking about Bumble Bee though. Never knew i missed him so much. I think he is not coming back for CNY next year. Then Refflesia try to contact me again via text. I didn't reply, cause i genuinely felt happier without his presence in my life. 

Thought, Think & Think

 Been worrying about getting Old recently. Not worry about the age but it's more  about the quality of my life while getting OLD. So of course i am determined to age gracefully and with exquisite quality. To achieve that? I Need to Execute a Massive maintenance Operation. 

Cekik Darah!! From my Flora till my Fauna. 

i.e, hair, skin, body mind and soul. 

well... those are the basics. Have to feel beautiful in order to thrive within this world isn't it??

 Then recently something got into me. I begin to like beards & Goth Ninjas. Wonder how am i gonna synchronize that with patinas. lolzz..... 

I even consider marrying Cyrus!!!

Anyway her spills of confidence does turns me on. Ahemm... it's ......Spiritually not sexually. 

FAREWELL

I will never forget the times that we had. 

Tonight i have to bid farewell to a friend who is going back to his hometown to work. So because i wont be going that area anymore? Indirectly, I won't be seeing two other friends who hangs out there too.  One of them i am quite fond of. Hopefully they would look for me next time. There is another friend too who is gonna be transfered to another area starting tomorrow. Hmm.... 

Wish them all the luck in life. 

ZAP

Do zap me with electricity. Not doing anything lately. Everything is a distraction. I am bound to babysit everyday and yet the question of "Why am i not doing anything" sill comes up. Duhh!! it's because you bloody ask me to babysit!! That's why!! You all single handedly deconstructed my almost perfect life. I am not blaming. Just don't find fault with me when you are utilizing me. Consuming my time means extra free time for yourself. Tell me !! What have you done to improve the situation?

Passing The Days

Remember the Security guard that i mentioned about? the sexy security guard that lets me suck? He is leaving Malaysia in November. Relocating at Germany. Hmm... and i thought that i finally found a sex partner Well sort of, cause he is straight. Though it's all i can suck but it's gonna end soon. I don't like these feeling of "it's gonna end soon". I bloody hope that i am not going to be emotionally attach to him in any ways!!  He was acting weird yesterday though. He kept on stares at me when i am not looking. He says that he wants to know more girls and hope that i could introduce some of my girl friends. Ishh... Such a retarded evening!!
I felt that whatever that i've done recently, is all purely just to sabotage myself. This is crazy. I am not being productive at all. I felt so heavy. Being sleepless isn't helping at all. It's such a nuisance really. What's worst, i felt like eating big chunks of meat all the time. It's not the taste that i am craving for but it's the feeling of my teeth sinking into the chunks of boneless meat that i am craving for. Lolzz.... nuts!!

CAP

Guys with caps are getting my attention these days. Is it making a comeback? Suddenly they just look so attractive these days.

I can't Sleep

I walk and i walk and i walk and i walk. Is it my eyes or there are really not a soul that are awake at that time?? 

NICE!!!

I can't seem to be able to comprehend this picture below as they are oozing with love and such masculinity practicing such elegant affection in the open just melts me to the core. 

 then comes these pictures below. Hmmm.... such a mockery to my current entire being!!! Don't know if it's real or not but it's bloody sweet 

What do you think of this??

Skin for NOOK. "DFFT" initials