Moods

I said i need to be calm and he gave me a call. My cousin are around , so i can't smoke. My parents were here with my aunt. They must touch every thing in the house cause to them they are doing me a favor of cleaning. I totally appreciate that but when two overdressed identical stool is put evenly beside a book rack. You just don't stack it up together to make space. That is just one of the examples.Hmmm have to withstand so many stuff. Am i crazy to think that his voice is so sweet? 

Friend

OMG...my friend couldn't stop asking me about him. Orrghhh.... She wants the picture and every detail. How can someone be so persistent? I stop Texting her the whole day and her text couldn't stop appearing and whats worst, she is so excited about it till every text is only like two to three words and it takes like five text to make up one sentence. Hahaahh...... I'm very flattered that she takes so much interest in my grey episode but i have decided to talk less about him. Why? Cause i notice that i am unconsciously building my feelings for him as i speak of him. Well the sweet flashbacks and all. I don't want to be someone who rushed into something as i think everyone knows how this "little fresh sweet moments" could lead to. It makes you smile non stop like crazy, and makes us missed that not yet happen guy so much!! I have to be calm....Calm...............calm..calm...calm..  ..........calm...............calm.....

I really don't know what title should i have for this post.

This is really crazy. Yeah...for a moment there i am being struck by....(what i don't know) Love? I think Love is such a strong word. You know what i thought today in the afternoon? Cause i was eagerly waiting for him to reply my text. For a moment there i was deciding that...if i ever gonna be with him. I would accept his crazy part and i would come clean with my family. (currently still discreet only to my family) Then my jaw dropped and my tongue rolled on the floor and went over my dog. I can't believe that i actually think so. Shocking!!! Then i saw Xing's comment. couldn't agree more. Then it makes me think again.... It's just a day. Just once met. I am thinking too much. What ever that might happen also...it will happen gradually. This is even too early to judge and i am already thinking so far away. Besides i would never agree if any of my friends starts being together after a date. I always tells them to be calm and know the person first. The day will come...if it's yours and you should make sure it's a right decision.  Jiwang!!!! Jiwangg!!!!!

Fairy Tale part 2

I was chatting with my best friend over this case and my friend were saying that ,his spasm looking face and the way he "Ting Tong" are symptoms of a drug user. Hmmm, my friend are kind of pioneer in these drug thingy. Cause she is quite crazy last time. Well...it really describes him. He does looks like he had a bad experience with drugs before. He did told me that he does Chem sex last time but not now. If these are the after effects of drug abuse. I understand. The thing is, when he is excited he jokes loudly.. till everyone stares...then he speaks like he is mumbling. His laugh are cracking the roof. Till the stage where i felt afraid that he might just wakes up and sing a happy song on the street. When he sleeps...his body never stops twitching and he mumbles tons of thing while sleeping. Did the drug messed up his brain?
Leave those aside... he is unrealistically perfect. Will i see him again? I am sure i will see him again if such plans took place. I would even feel so bloody lucky if he ask me out again. Then these are my worries...Is he still on drugs? Chem sex is quite a daring game. Did he slept with many at once, or usually with drugs ppl get bizarrely creative and is he "safe"? Did the drugs messed up his mind? Cause he definitely looks quite different from his pic. As in his face muscles did go off position a bit. With all these matters i somehow still foresee myself "might" still..... will.....fall for him. I am scared. I do not want any messy stuff. I know in a way i sound bad, i am also worried and scared. Not to mentioned the vast empty feeling of the "forbidden fruit" moment. 

Fairy Tale

I just got to get this out of my system. I just got back from a sweet mellow roller coaster ride....but also bitter. It last about eight hours. I met this guy online. It started out very dirty at first but just somehow it got okay and just somehow we never get to meet up. Then it happened yesterday. I met him up. We had supper and then to his place . He ask me to stay over when i say i need to go home. So i stayed anyway. then we had lunch as that's the time we woke up. Had a walk, down a mall...then he send me home. He is everything i wanted in a man. Gentlemen. Super good looking but dorky at the same time. So happen that he is tall. I am only at his shoulder. (The owner of this blog is 5'7") At any entrance he would move aside to let me walk first. The kind of thin body that i like.  He is stable by himself. Smart with conscience. Not a hint of sex. This eight hours i felt like i know how Cinderella felt when the prince helps her to wear her  glass shoe. It's like when he ask me "what drink do you want to drink?" Without hesitation i'll say "I DO" blinking my eyes. HAIKS!!! Not that he is into me!!
He is a cheerful guy too. It's TOO cheerful. Like he is overdosed with some drug or something. Speaks and laugh Loudly!!! It almost comes to me as though he is "Nuts"  Then he has this veins twitching thing that makes him speaks with funny pronunciations  It's like someone who is suffering from some drugs overdosed or something. Other than that. He is really "Everything" I can't stand it when he put his hands at my waist, whenever he is guiding me to a different directions. That is pure thoughtful. Even when walking down the stairs he tells me to watch my steps cause he knows of my vision's conditions. Sweetness.
This feeling in me now are so weird. I felt empty. So hollow...like almost i need to weep but it's just not there yet., but it paused there. I know i am sad though. Somehow...i know i still will give it a go if he "ever" try to catch me.
What is this man??? It really feels like you are sitting on the beach on a Sunday afternoon. Hot but there are strong wind blowing but it's dry..You felt empty almost bored but it's exciting cause you are at the beach. Then at the same time you heard the news that Princess Diana just passed away.  This is quite shitty man.

*NOTE : This is speed Blogging. Further elaboration will come! If there is any.