Continuation from yesterday's post.

Later, at the next stop. more people are pouring in. We have no choice but to make space for other people. I took my bag up and hug my bag now. Thank god my bag was light. But anyhow, at any time i would only use one hand to hug my bag. It's something I'm used to. A naughty hand. Ha ha ha ha...... In this case, The door was on my left and my right is at the corner. So i use my right hand to hug my bag. I adjusted my position and put down my left hand and wanted to tuck my thumb in my pocket. As i was about to tuck, my hand got caught, squeezed between the door and that guy;s crutch!! Our eyes caught and a retract my hand!! (STUPID) (something i regret almost instantly.)  The push doesn't stops there. He got even closer when everyone at the door are pushing. Some passengers actually can't get up at the end. While it happens, I'm in awe. Suddenly my neck tightens, my nose sharpens and my eyes were shut. (you know it's those "shut" where your eye lids giggles?) I swear i felt sweat flowing down my neck. I realized his face is beside my face i can smell his neck. and i'm actually smelling  BVLGARI BLUE.  The one perfume that i categorized as "PHEROMONES" of men. !!!!! I don't even dare to open my eyes. That moment was stunning and sexy. I think i was shaking a little. I felt dizzy and everything seems to be in a slow motion. Everything is just so fiction at that moment. I cannot stop breathing IN. I think i may have steams coming out of my mouth. I dare not open my eyes, cause at the same time i don't want "this" moment to disappear. My imagination went stealth and fast. Then it stops, cause i felt a few cold drips of water dripped on my foot. I still didn't open my eyes, but i lifted my foot and try to wipe it off my foot. As i wipe it, i realized that the water is actually my pre cum. cause the  trail is from above my knee, that is from under my shorts. I didn't realize that i was actually throbbing and oozing pre cums. Ah... that sent me blushing big time. As i moved my hand back into position, i purposely brush across his crutch. Of course my eyes were opened then. He actually looked at me when my hand touches his crotch. i quickly close my eyes, when he looked. I was scared, I just continued breathing. Then suddenly i realized the tip of my nose is touching his ear. I opened my eyes when i felt it, but he didn't move a bit. In fact i think he is trying to caress his ears at my nose. I backed a little bit, cause as much as i desired it, we are still in a train. I can't see his eyes, as our face is almost side by side. I can hear him breathe. I think I'm breathing fire at that time. I cannot explain how disgustingly sensual that moment is. All this while i actually didn't realize that his hand is just beside my bulge. I thought it was my bag that my groin was banging as the train move. I knew that because he suddenly conveniently moved his hands in circular mode on my bulge. As I'm hugging my bag above, and his hands are underneath, so no one can see what he does. I think at that time my mouth were opened and i have to breath. He then actually took my hand and place it on his bulge. All this happened without us looking at each other. Froze for a moment then i started to play with his bulge. I scratched slowly and softly at every slight bulging thing i felt. Then i realized he moved a little, every time i scratch this part near his pocket. So i guess, that should be his head and that would be his sensitive spot. That means.... that's where i should attack. ha ha ha...... I think he did suffered a little, he starts to breath harder and harder. Well.... he did tortured me as well, but he didn't know. Cause my weak point, is him caressing me softly. Feeling his big warm palm, squeezing and teasing me softly. It got me electrified and yes.... yes.... i actually came. I have a hard time controlling myself when i came. I can't even stand straight. I came so much, i don't even dare to see how much cum is on my foot. I guess he knew after that, cause i tend to have this sudden shock when i shoot. He didn't stop after that, he continue caressing me. It turned me on big time. Well, as i am too attacking him at his weak point. I moved my hand further up, as i hope is his penis head. I started to scratch with two fingers in circular mode and my thumb slightly below. Time to time I'll squeeze it hard a while. Then suddenly his leg moved a little, he hold my dick quite hard and he placed his head on my shoulder, like he is fainting or something.  But i could feel the tense in my palm. At that moment too, i was stunned, cause we were in a train. Thank god, no one actually bothered to look. I think. This is by far, the hottest sex i've ever had!!! Wait!! does this considered as sex? LOL.........Of course, there is a second session. We did exchange numbers too, but i didn't text him. Due to my condition now, medically i mean. I don't think i'm fit to it. besides there are some points that i don't like about him, during the second session. He is kinda dominant and lazy. ........

Went out

Well, i went out again. Just normal outing with my sis. We both have this sudden obsession of doing gardening. We sweep the plants in the nursery. Anyway you know the nurseries here always are arranged in a way that there are only narrow path between the plants. Hmmm.... I cannot believe it how adventures it could be. There are always many plants there hence there are also many workers and many people walking around. Sometimes i get irritated by how many times i have to step aside to give way. well there i have difficulty seeing those plants. The gardeners there have to wear this big hat to makes things worst. When they walk pass it always hit my head and mess up my already messy hair. There again this gardener tries to walk pass again. He kinda insisted passing through in front of me. I didn't even look at him. then another guy wanted to pass again and then this same gardener (i guess. by instinct) want to pass again and again he wants to walk pass infront of me. T his time i kinda stared at him when he was right in front of me. Kinda have to face to face. I gasp for a while, as he is sexy. not good looking but his feature suggest sexy.!!!! He stared back at me and this time he brush his bulge against my bulge. I got shocked!! totally blank almost fainted and i don't know why , my sudden reaction was to grab his bulge. It was bloody embarrassing as it's happen even without thinking. When my senses came back i was still in shock and my first reaction was to look if there was anyone around. There isn't!! not even my sis. Does that means it was only him who kept passing by me??  Then he started rubbing my dick with his hand. God knows hos suddenly my dick were so hard and he manage to push it out of my underwear. He didn't even unzip my jeans.!! Then he manage to hold my penis head and start scratching it, while it's still in my jeans. I on the other hand is already holding his shaft. He is wearing a soft material pants, sort of like linen. It was so incredibly kinky that i almost cum, then he pull my hand and just walk one row to the back into one store room. He just knelt down and start giving me blowjobs!!!  Anyone in this situation will be in full heat and no way that you could hold yur cum.  So i cum in like 3 seconds (aiks!!) then i thought of returning the favour. I wanna pull out my dick but he doesn't let go. he continue sucking. OMG!!! That was like the ultimate weapon and my kinky desire. He sucked like a hungry baby, robust but silky at the same time. The suctions were precise and i can't moan. So i have to shut up but in pleasure. My whole body were throbbing and i cannot breath. Almost 10 munites i cum again. I grab his hair so hard and i think my toes were twisting in my shoes!! hahahaaa..... I wish i could give him more but my sis were calling my phone already that time. I have to go and we parted in a very wierd way i must say. Cause i was looking at him in a very very sorry way but then i really want this look. He smiled and say, it's okay, with a thank you. I never felt so guilty for not doing something wrong before. I just wish i had have hug and kissed him when i leave.

It's Empty

Hmmm.... you ever felt like you have so much to do and everything seems to flash through your brain and at the end it's actually empty? I seems to have so much to do but i just can't decide where to start! What's worst is that i went out for my birthday dinner the other day. A simple walk around the mall makes me go crazy. There are actually so many stuff that i have been wanting to do. Like now, i just can't decide. This is frustrating. I have just gain 3kg due to my medications. I tend to eat a lot. I feel ugly to even walk put the door. It's just a month that i have been sitting at home and the world changes fast. Just a moment at the toilet the other day, and guys are very daring or shall i say des[erate. Well i know i do but since my vision is limited so i just don't look. The guys in the toilet instead are.... well you know standing beside you longer than usual. Well, though i can't look doesn't mean i can't have a hard on. The guy that was beside me was the waiter where i'm having my birthday dinner. Damm!!!! He is hot as far as i know. When he serve my table, i can see that he is lean and toned. When he lean forward to remove some plates , his bulge is right on the table. He place it right on the table. I think he knows how to work the table. Such a teaser. Back to the toilet..... I think i got nervous. I don't dare to look when i know he is standing there for so long. I eventually turn to look but i don't know why, i just can't see but i can see he is looking at me. Arrghhh...... at the end someone came in and we just went off. Well, it's good for him too, or else with the inner energy that i have reserved for that exercise. I'll suck him dry in one go. LOL.......

Better

Went praying the other day. Something i wanted to do for some time already, but never got a chance. Not gonna mention about work cause it's all a mess and sad. Gonna mention about my colleagues though. Practically everyone is gay. They are hitting on me. OMG!!! How can a manager get messed up with them? One of them got my attention though. He is the kind i'll never got attracted to. He is very sissy and too soft. But what i like is that he is very polite and courteous. Today he tried to brush through my bulge. Hahah... of course i act as if theres nothing and walk away but at the same time something grew bigger!! I have to go out right away and have a smoke to cool down. I cannot be messing up with my staff!!! Though these stuff could spice up my work life. Hmmm... felt a bit bored. cause he is gonna off for the next two days. anyway i have to keep my dirty thoughts to myself.

At What point

At what point will your pleasure satisfy you? Once upon a time just a simple bulge would make me go crazy. Just watching a hot guy run around with a trace out bulge or even just a guy not wearing a top would get me masturbating. Pre cum starts flowing out and could even get me hard for the whole day. Now with the much exposure and after many blowjobs. It's getting harder to satisfy ourself don't you think? With the all exposed pictures on the net and even easy download porn just gets you harder to satisfy yourself. I'm not going against it... these things should live forever. I'm just saying we humans just simply seeks more. Now i actually enjoyed being doubled suck. It's just the moment when you cum and the guy continue to suck even harder right at the most vulnerable moment, making your whole body tensed up pulsating in pleasure.  it's the rare view of unexpected moments actually gets you go crazy. Like maybe a guy with a hard on in the train, or a peek at the guy pissing beside you, an unzipped pants, or a peek into a guys shorts. The pure simple truth of hard to get get moments actually gets you even hornier. Don't you agree?

Bulge

Ahh.... woke up kinda late today and have to rush to work. Not many ppl lining up today at the train station. Maybe that explains why is the road are all so jammed. My manager today is really in a great mood. Didn't give me a hard time and that's how i would prefer to spend my last days there. Today is seriously bored at work though. Nothing to see, I guess the cute guys are all on leave today. LOL.... So got back at 7pm today as some last minutes customers dragged my time. so rushed to the train and hope to catch an early train but it did not. It got delayed. *^%#@*^&% Finally when the train arrives i get to stand beside the cutest guy ever!!! I guess its his eyes that makes me kept starring at him. So the train was full of people. It was well pack. This guy that stands in front of the cute guy, actually carries a laptop bag and he pushed it to his bag hence his laptop bag was right in front of this guy's bulge!!!!! So i was faking my sleep in there and had my head face down. But actually i was looking at his bulge. As the train moves i notice that guy's laptop kept brushing this guy's bulge and "the" bulge actually gets bigger. It was well hot and i was out of breath, cause i was so near to wonders and i can't even touch it. All i have to do is just lift up my fingers and i could touch his bulge already. Yes, it's that near.  In a way i felt pity for him because he has no where to turn to  it was so packed that he sort of being trapped there, . LOL.... like being molested with his body tied up. You should see his face. It's like he is being blown, and he has this breathless expression that makes me go crazy. I wonder did he actually cummed or not? ;)

Random

Everything is so random. One minute there are so many cute guys and one minute there is none. One minute somebody's husband wink at me and one minute there is nothing at all. Somehow i felt alright and well happy. Sad in a way too cause of some random problems but there are so many other things to look at. Just standing outside the mall while smoking, i can see so many stuff. i can see the security having a hard-on and kept on adjusting it. I can see these middle eastern tourist kept on scratching their bulge and i can see their head traced out at their pants while walking (it's just obvious they don't wear underwear)  I can see an Italian guy in white shorts and his bulge is huge. I can see these office guys walking with an obvious package traced out. Just love the new trend of skinny-ish straight cut pants!!! Talking about these today i actually were quite in shock. My smoking buddy came a bit late today. While i was enjoying all the wonderful scenery of rocky mountains.. I guess i had a hard-on too. So with me in my uniform, so it kinda shows but i was not really aware of it. When my smoking buddy arrive, he stand kinda "too" near to me. His hip is actually brushing my bulge. Somehow my dick actually faces down, and with my low waist underwear today actually kinda force my head to the side and my friends hip is kinda brushing my head. It was damm hot and mind bursting. Thank god i knew him well enough to joke about it. I have to tell him i'm gonna cum if he doesn't stop. Then we laugh it off. I notice he too had a hard-on. so i just casually grab his bulge and when i felt where his head is, is scratch it with my fingernail. It's just so weird that we didn't pursue further. It's just a friend thing. LOL...

Great stuff

Today isn't a bad day after all. So many great looking guys are walking around today. It's like a "Cute Guys day" Most of them are europeans and foreigners. It's great when you see some who are so casually cute and flirtyatious. A few guys actually stared at me and smiled. Mann.... too bad i'm a shy person. I don't dare to initiate anything. There is even a guy who i saw while on my way home just now, he actually gave me a shy look and scratch his bulge. Damm... it was hot cause he (i guess) is not wearing underwear. I guess so cause i can see it bouncing exceptionally. Oh god..... such temptations..... Other than that...(i think i'm hard now) i actually called up one of the boutique that i have passed my resume last week. Spoke to the manager and she says she didn't recieve any resume. No wonder she interviewed another guy last week. Then she actually ask for an immediate interview. Good thing i called :) When i went for the interview she is actually busy with some customers and she appologise and ask me to come back tomorrow instead. Well happy enough i have an appointment for the interview. ahhhaaa....... fingers crossed. Wish me all the luck guys.

Stares

Just passed the holidays and DURING the holidays are a mixes of pleasure and pain. Pain is when there are so many people who lingers around and so is thier natural body odour. It's unbearable and it really makes my day pain. Pleasure is when they walk pass and most of them don't wears underwear. It's obvious and when thier bulge moves so much and thier outlines are quite obvious. Aiks!! Well, it's eye candy but the guy that i kinda always look at are not back to work yet. Didn't see him for some time already, as i only would bump into him when i'm in the train. The other guy that i'm keeping my hopes up are not taking any first steps yet. Well, should i start it?