Quest 5

Today i clean part of my room and also do the usual routine of cleaning the house. Then i started to watch a movie. It was super sad. I must say i wasn't in quite a good mind these days. I think i should mentally get a life. Sometimes i'm quite impressed with how our mind work. I can feel excited but at the same time i also could feel sad. It's really a complex mind. Well then after the movie i read my mail and i got a mail from a friend. Such coincidence the song i'm listening to was quite heartwarming. So happen too it was a very touching mail from my friend. I couldn't bare it but get all emo and stuff. What a day. I then get down to watch the TV. I choose animax cause i want to watch something happy but it has to be another sad sad episode. I cried. Hahhaha.... i just couldn't bare it somehow.
When you are at the lowest you always tend to look up don't you think? I did. So the days emo actually got me pumped up somehow. Not much but at least i'm looking for hope.
I just finish one pack of ciggy. I hope i'm strong enough to not walk out to buy a new pack. Fingers cross.

Quest 4

I didn't do much lat few days. I was feeling a bit off and i had to visit the doc for some checkups. Remember about the stuff i applied from my government? So i didn't do much lately but i did clear lots of little little stuff around the house and my garden. Oh!! my fishes nearly died the other day. There is a power failure and it happen twice. The thing is when the power came back it killed my water pump in my fish pond. I didn't know till midnight. When i saw it my heart sank, cause all the fishes are kinda floating, when the water pump is not working, there is no water pumped up to the pot above, hence there will be no water overflowing and drop into the pond and hence when there is no water dropping into the pond so there will no oxygen. I quickly get an old pump hoping it works and it sure did. Very slow but at least it could create oxygen. Then i get a new one the next day. He he....
Anyway back to the little little stuff. It started out in my garden. I don't have a piece of land to work at. So my plants are all in pots. Somehow. after sometime there will be some wild grass or some little unknown plants would grow in the pot. Taking away precious nutrients and water from my plants. Well its not that they are bad in nature . It's just the simple idea of if there is two plant in one pot so they have to share everything. So of course we remove the unknown plant so my plant could get everything. So i was doing it. Some i did it more frequent but some pots are kinda hidden and harder to reach. So it didn't get as much attention. It looks obvious. I can't see my plant. So it hit me that i have to clean my house that way too.
You will be surprise of all the rubbish you can find/ Start with one drawer a day maybe if you are super busy. Your kitchen. Cabinets that you keep your dry food. Your shoe rack. The tv rack. Your car. Your wallet? The bag you use everyday. Even your key bowl. Under the bed or couch.
I smoked lesser now. But i don't think it's an achievement as i crave to smoke as bad. 

Quest 3

Today i continue the mess i did yesterday. My eyes are not that clear after all. Today when i see the cabinet i see patches of parts that i didn't paint. Kinda humored myself there. So instead of wrapping things up i have to cover those spots that i missed. Another round of painting. it was kinda more difficult this time cause i'm wearing gloves. Plastic and paint really don't go together.Tends to be very sticky and slow down the process. After that i tried to clean as much and re-attached the little doors handle. Well it turns out very nice and my dining room looks fresher than ever. Well, still have to wait for the paint to really dry up then i can put back all the stuff.
Got a letter today requesting me to do a check up for my eyes. I tried to apply for some funds from the government. Hope it will approve this time round. I feel bad using so much of my sisters money. The medical fee and all.
My fishes are doing well. Didn't do much gardening today. Hmmm... i'm thinking which stuff to do after the painting. So many stuff to clear once you sit back and see. Anyway i'm glad i'm settling stuff, one by one.
Still can't seem to stop smoking. I'm thinking of smoking as i'm typing about smoking here. Aish....
I miss Bumble Bee. I hope he is doing well. Take care of yourself. Really take good care of yourself. 

Quest 2

Hmm... I felt like crying now. Just out of the blue i felt like crying. What is it for? I don't know. Well, yesterday i went for my routine check up. My eyes are doing great. It's healing well. So now instead of every month i only have to visit my doctor every two months. Then again i have two doc that i have to visit.
Anyway because the nurses dilated my eyes so i didn't do anything yesterday. At night i just water my plants and head straight to bed. I have been feeling tired easily lately. I wonder it's lazy or i'm actually tired.
Today, the first thing that pop in my mind when i woke up was the fishes. I have to get fishes for my new pond. So i got ready and walked to the pet store. Wasn/t really the type i wanted, it's a smaller species of what i had in mind. But i get it anyway. Can't wait any longer lol... like a boy i'm excited. Walked home and settle the fishes. Had the right picture i had in mind only smaller. Anyway it's still pretty. After that i spend like hours watching it. Then i got this sudden urge to paint my dining room's cabinet. Search for the old paint in my store room and start painting. Now i know how much trouble i'm gonna get into if i do things without planning. I dripped the paint everywhere. Got some paint on every single thing. I think i'll have a super busy day tomorrow. :( I rushed and finish painting in 5 hours. Then i got paint every part of my body. Thank god i didn't do it naked.  lol.... I tried washing the paint of with this bottle of thinner that i found. Man... that was super painful. I poured it right to my hand and it burns. Even when my hands are under running water i still feel the burn. I then repeatedly wash it off with soap till i felt better. After all that my hands are still not paint free. The thinner diluted the paint and now it's still stuck on my hand. My hands are white now, which is the paint color. Skin is a bit rougher now. still feel a bit burning sensation. I applied toms of lotion , hoping my skin won't peel. After all that, i just walked to my dining room and have a look. Though , news papers are everywhere. dots of paint on the fridge, plates, bottles, my hands burning.  i think i'm glad i did it. Quite tired now. My fingers are shaking while typing.

Hope you all did something satisfying too today? (how come it sounds kinda dirty?) Wish you all have a great day ahead. Cheers.
  

Kinda Started

Today i kinda started my quest that i promised here. My biological clock are kinda messed up. So i stayed up and didn't get much sleep so that i could start my quest. Well nothing much. I tidy up my garden. I put up a new pond and actually are not very satisfied with it. So this morning after watering my plants i cleared my new pond and set it up again. Simple is always the best but it takes some mistakes to achieve it. So i filled it up with water. It's now clean and clear. Wait for two days for the water to set then i can buy some fishes to compliment it. It's actually quite satisfying. Initially i filled it up with mud and sand to plant some greens in my new pond. The fishes would love it but it looks kinda messy. I then remove it and now i plant it in a clay pot and just place it in the middle. Well kinda above middle, center but more to the upper north side. Now it looks neat and clear. I think i should make "stop smoking" as my quest as well. If you have been following my blog, you'll notice i've mentioned this for ages already. I'm worried i can't do iy. Still i don't stop doing it. Grr... Well i just bathe and am waiting for my hair to dry. Just wanna keep ,y blog updated. Badly wanna sleep too. Cheers guys, hope you had a great day.