It's Really something.

I have decided to let these following days to be as normal as possible. I rather we stays as friend. I dare not gamble on it. But as plain as i want it to get? the more thick the feeling grows. These days i have to gut myself ever more when i am walking towards him. It's just pure massive feeling of fond. Everyday it grew. Everyday my stare towards him gets more intense. I am surprised myself that sex is not what i want. Everyday my nerves trembles when he greets me. My hands shakes. I can feel my body trembles. I think i need super power to contain myself. 

It's it's something i guess........? Five

Have you ever felt this feeling of betrayal? Something fishy. It's like you have this sixth sense telling you that your boyfriend is cheating on you or someone is betraying you?  It's really an ugly feeling. I had it twice before and twice also turns out to be true. Once was my best friend starts to date the guy who i likes. Another one are when Bumble Bee is going out with another guy. What i felt or suspicious about usually hits on the spot quite precisely. This time i really don't know why i am having this feeling. It's quite ridiculous actually cause this time i am suspecting that my friend who always follows me to 7Eleven one is dating Straight Boy. I am really amazed with the appearance of this suspicions but my friend has not call me for two weeks already. My friend too did actually show interest in Straight Boy too. OMG...this better not be true cause i tremendously hate this feeling. it's robust and ugly. It's really ugly ugly. 

Actually i am super terrified. I am afraid that what happens in the past may repeat. I don't want to know if it happens. I know i sounds plain STUPID and unnecessary but that particular fear registered in me, i can't help it. 

It's it's something i guess........? Four

 Monday 5.30 am....Saw him and he was sitting in front of 7Eleven. Alone half asleep. He has the cutest face ever when he is tired. He told me he is sleepy in a whining face . His sleeves got stuck-up a bit ..like folded up a bit so i helped to unfold his sleeves and he lets me do it. Not even a glance or a twitch, he just continue talking to me. Now should i feel weird about this? You are straight and you let customer does this? Anyway i kinda just warned him that it's really dangerous for him to fall asleep outside. When i reach...there is not a soul in that area. If bad things happens...there wouldn't been any witness at all. Fall asleep at the cashier at least you have CCTV. Scare the crap out of me. Later I texted him when i got home. Asking him to feel free to hang out at my house cause he really looked bitter.

Tuesday 4.00am Since he did not reply my text so i din't bring the matter up. While i was paying...he brought it up. He apologizes that he didn't reply and i just explain to him that i saw that he was really tired yesterday that's why. Then i just told him next time just come over and don't ever worry it wouldn't be a bother. So he smiled and answers.."yeah...one day i'll come" Whoahh...i am happy with his answer cause the last time he never really gave me an answer. This time he did...like he is finally accepting my offer. :)

Wednesday..5.30am. Nothing much happens. Just normal talk

Thursday 4.00am. I went there and a loud greet from him I smiled and told him to give me two packs of cigarette. (sorry Tuls)  "Huh?? why so many?" he frowned. "Oh...i have things to do tomorrow, i won't be coming here"  Then he said "So i cannot see you tomorrow" he stops smiling. I totally went blank and i actually were finding what kind of expression i should give next. Imagine i am bloody happy but i cannot show that out loud and all i just did was smile and say " ha ha yeah..maybe (paused) i'll (paused) come...(paused) see how.

Friday 12.00am. He has a friend there hanging out with him. The usual hi's and bye's. Then while i was paying he sort of signals to his friend to see me. Then his friend just looked at me for a while and the looked back at him ..and says "yeah" ???  *Ting *Ting *Ting *Ting *Ting What the hell was that?

Sorry guys that this doesn't have a juicy finish cause it hasn't end yet. That's in the future. I am kinda contemplating with "the" situation. That would be another post. For now this is what has happened so far. Thanks for reading guys. 

It's it's something i guess........? Three

To be frank i really almost lost my self there. I almost don't know what to do. Ha ha hah...... Trying very hard to act normal and while blushing i invited him in.

He did not came to "stay" but it's only to check out the location of my home.

Well though he did not enter but i think i am all chirped up too, over the fact that he actually bothers to check out where is my home.  :)  Now!! He is straight and do you feel that this part is quite weird?

Anyway.... the days goes on and i see him when i see him and saw him when i saw him. Like i mentioned before this, i hang out with one of my this friend quite a lot and always show up at 7Eleven with my friend too. This goes on for about three months since the handphone number incident. So from my friend who says Straight Boy is not his type till now my friend thinks that Straight Boy is super cute and one day my friend told me..."Hey if you never gonna make any moves. I'm gonna take him" To speak the truth i am quite insulted by his words and all i could react is just "Hey!! PLEASE???"

One day Straight Boy ask me where is my friend. So i turn back to see and couldn't find  my friend so i answered " I don't know". He laugh at my answer and then he looked outside again ...jutted out his neck a bit to see further outside from across the cashier. Suddenly he say..."take my number" "xxxxx" and starts telling me his number. I was stunned a bit and he realized it. He then say "handphone""handphone"  and point at my bag pocket. After like 5 seconds then only i get what he meant and i quickly tear my bag pocket to grab my handphone. Lolz..... Right when he finishes telling me his number ...my friend came in. Straight Boy greeted my friend and start continue doing his stuff. One thing that i really loved is that we both always have those mutual understanding.

Like in this kind of situations we
could know what both parties wants....For instance, once i hide two packs of cookie in my bag. One was the Mark & Spencer box cookie and another one was the butter cookie from Ikea  I hate to let my friend knows that i am giving gifts and when we enter 7Eleven my friend head straight to the back to get the can drinks and i usually don't wait at the cashier . I will follow to the back. So as my friend walks first ..me at the back quickly take the cookies out and place it on the cashier. Straight Boy was at the other corner. So i walked straight to the back to choose my drinks and when i turn i saw Straight Boy already at the cashier. When i reach the cashier the cookie is not there anymore and not one word is said about it. I never told him to be secretive about it but it just happens. Bought our stuff and went off. After two days when i am there alone then only he thanked me for the cookies.Now again ....this part?...do you feel weird? Do you?

All that i have mentioned happens from approximately November 2010 till last month. This that i am about to tell in my next post happens last week .

It's it's something i guess........? two

I think i misinterpreted  his reactions reacting to my gesture. When i give, he take and i start to imagine, "Hope".  He is simply just respecting our friendship. I never told him i am gay and i guess he should guessed it by now. Anyway no confirmation though, question never raised and never discussed about it.
One day i gave him my number. I ask him to text me his number and i walked away. This way both parties could avoid the awkward moment. Never know what if he doesn't wants to share his number? Then it would be hard for him to avoid anything and also i no need to secretly dig a hole with my toes and bury myself. :)
He never text though.
The next time i see him was two weeks after that. I drop the question only the next day. He said he lost the paper that i gave him. Soooo.....we, the smart generation  (*wink) gets the message. Point taken and life goes on. So now i know, i have to wear a  rubber suit every time i see him so that there would be no electricity flowing out of me body.
I still do see him sometimes when ever i go out to drink with my friend. The Mamak/Cafe  is just beside 7Eleven. HAHAHA...(how pathetic)
Every time after drinking, my friend and i will buy a can of drink and a pack of cigarette ( Sorry :( Tuls  )  before we head to the car cause we will stop at the park before heading home. So we were never apart every time when we enter the shop. and sometimes i will see Straight Boy depending on his schedule.

Sometimes when he works in the night shift he would get quite tired due to the odd sleep time. So i know he would walk back to his home like for 40 minutes. Imagine..sleepy...and walk..!! So i told him that if he ever gets super tired just come to my house *wink *wink and he basically could rest here all day till his next shift and it's like 5 minutes walk from 7Eleven. Well i am afraid to suggest at first cause i don't want him to visually imagine me with two horn. I did it anyway and he just ask where is my house just to be polite. Next day while i was watering my plants around 8.30am i heard his voice, he was on his way home. OMG!!! I was not dressed properly and at that time i was only holding one hose and two dry leaves in the size of my thumb how to cover??  The sweat and my hair and I'm in my pj's i basically turned purple. Anyway I'll continue again in my next post. I know how annoying it is when a post gets too long. ;)

It's it's something i guess........?

I have actually mentioned about him before in one of my previous post titled 7-Eleven. Anyway a brief summary. Boy (me) meets straight boy (him) a year ago i think. Straight boy works in 7-Eleven and he is from Nepal. Straight boy looks exactly like the guy in the picture above (I swear and cross my heart) :P shorter and he has a very nice voice too. Since he is straight so i behave. (In a way) Occasionally i give him present and little gifts supported by occasions like his birthday and Christmas. He is Christian by the way. Both boys became friends. :)
I saw him the other day . I was buying some stuff. He came out with the reddest lips ever and kept licking his lips and making the ssss.... sssss....sssss...sound. Cause he was having his dinner and his food was very spicy. He bloody looks like Julia Robert after crying in the train station in "My Best Friend's Wedding"  It's so adorable that i could feel like one of those slow motion moments. Great temptations forcing me to kiss him. Starting by licking his lips......Then again like i mentioned ..he is straight. So i ended up smiling on my own while walking off. 

ONE MONTH

One month" that is how long my only relationship lasted. Lol..... and yet it left me with many to learn, hence arming me with plenty of precautions. Does it means it's even harder for me to be in a relationship now? Hahah......

I am not mourning here....Just that recently i see the net are infested with post regarding LOVE and mainly are still searching. So these pop up in my little brain.

How come i only would have one relationship? It's because I am afraid of emotional chaos and i am frantically  afraid of hurting people.Whats the rush?
 Hahha...i know we shouldn't rush but well.......homo sapiens are impatient by nature. Before we know it we are considering botox and jabbing vitamin C. Right?  "That"doesn't mean we are willing to sacrifice "Happily Ever After" still......... we really shouldn't rush.

Love is not measured by your ability to accept his "Everything" because you loves "HIM" but instead it's measuring your ability to accept "HIM" because of his "Everything" and likewise his ability to accept "YOU" because of your "Everything" and not his ability to accept your "Everything" because he loves "YOU"

• EVERYTHING means the every inch of his being. His attitude. His look. The way he eats. The way he walks. His etiquette. The way he gives a BJ. Scars on his chest. The way he digs his nose. The way he presents himself in front of your friends.  His fashion sense. The way he moans your name. His table manners. His teeth color. Does he tidy his bed in the morning? Does he wash his dishes? His sense of respect. Is he pretentious? The way he stares at Cute guys. His taste on Coffee. How he spends his money. Too strict financially? Is he dependent or independent? Does he lifts up the toilet seat before he pee? The shape of his penis. Is he dominant?  Is he too clingy? He called or text too much?  Is he a gentlemen? Obnoxious? It's the  every inch of his being and vice versa Same way of how he would value you. 

I think you should get the idea.:) That's why i never support instant relationships, or get together after a few weeks or within a small amount of time. I really thinks that we always need to "know" the other guy first before we rushed into a relationship. Really, when two are attracted to each other there would be no confirmations needed. Even during the process itself you will feel bloody comfortable. The impromptu synchronizations. It's just magic. I do admit, all the time "Sex" always speed up the decisions. Not sex but it's the urge of tasting that delicious guy. Then i think sex shouldn't be a big "hoo hah", but to be treated like a normal activity. I know at this point many will think "yerrr" so cheap!! So you would rather be an item and have your heart blissfully split and cry for the next two weeks? and have this stamped in your book of  "Life History" in the "HATE" sections? and find your self telling your grandchildren about this evil man, even after 50 years?

Do interact more. virtually or reality. There are so many mourning singles out there, that means everyone are really looking but no one are there to invest a bit more time to make a conversations. ""HI....asl? Seek?" i think it's like a habit now everyone just ask simple questions. Straight to the point and if doesn't click then just click the next picture. Thinking that there are still thousands to choose from. Realistically speaking there are none, because everyone have the same mentality. "I still have plenty of men to choose from" Unless you are beautiful. Even the beautiful ones have became a tool for the community then goes to MP to meet a new guy but "I Have slept with your three other friend"

As it is we have many to learn when we are together.Why not speed  it up by learning about each other before together. Even just for friends sometimes we will de-hate that person if we start to know them. Never know maybe "The One" is just by your side.

Go out. Make friends. Get to know them sincerely.

Something Ridiculous but Matters.

I think i'm a bit sad. Sad because i have been hibernating much at home and didn't go out. So today i went to 7E and saw the Nepal guy that i gaga over. Sameer is his name. I was in a bit shock too. The first time i went in to get ciggy, he wasn't around. Then i had a drink with my friend and my ciggy finish as my friend smokes my ciggy too. So when i went in the second time i was approx 10 feet away and i saw Sameer waved. With my eyes condition, i couldn't see the rest of him even his hands are blurry to me. I totally cannot see his face too. So to prevent him from making more gesture i just said i couldn't see him as i was approaching near him. Then he showed me the worried look, and ask is if  it's because of my surgery. Well he thought i already had my surgery and it didn't work out well. Then i lol and say no. Then i can see that he took a deep breath and stared at me a while. A moment of silence.Well i think he did but not sure cause even standing one feet apart i wouldn't be able to see his eyes. Then i break the silence by asking for ciggy. Then he raised his voice a bit and ask " i thought you just bought a pack just now right?"  "I saw through the CCTV earlier" Again the silent moment, and he didn't take the ciggy. I just smiled and say yeah i was sharing with my friend, that's why it finished so fast. (well actually not finish yet la. Just wanna see him a bit actually) then he sigh... and  reached for the ciggy. After that....well...i actually bought a pack of cookie for him from Ikea last month. I've kept in my bag since, Never had the chance to give him and yeah luckily he is around today. We chat a bit after that and i left. Apparently he is a good cook.
I was totally neutral when i went in. His actions shows that he worries made me felt nice. Warm.. These guys are super innocent. I know he is worried as a friend. I am also well understands that he is straight and hey "don't dream" and don't create impossible possibilities. Well it's really that innocent, that i thought to myself that i really appreciate his worries to me as a friend and it's such a loss that we could never be an item. Felt a bit pain, don't you think? Besides it's been quite long already that a friend shows me such care. So felt a bit touched. ahahahh..... well actually you guys here kinda did showed me more care than the physical friends i have. Well i am thankful to Sameer and love you guys!! 

I Told Myself

It's more to... i warn myself before. I was about to touch on this topic of straight guys, and i realize this blogger called Klex ( http://parkinreverse.blogspot.com/ ) too had the same problems. Kind of i guess. I specifically warned myself before that i should never ever to fall in love with a straight guy. Or have any heavy or hardcore feeling for them. Well except celebrities. ( I love you Eric Belanger ) Lol...a shout out!! hahaha.....
Okay back to the subject. I have came to learn that Loving a straight guy is a very painful experience. It hurts enormously. You will always be in agony cause you would spend your time thinking what is he thinking. His every moves suddenly becomes a puzzle for you to decode. It will become a full time job, trust me.  Why he looks at me this way? why he gave me the candy and not to the other guy? OMG is he hitting on me?  Oh! is he angry at what i just did? and it never ends. 
The biggest mistakes that i have ever done is to express my feelings to all the straight guys that i have loved before. I didn't even say that i want to be together. It's okay to let them know you are gay but never let them know you are into them, Well, i am not judging all straight guys. In my cases all the straights are still my CLOSE friend until they get the hint that i like them. Well besides they are like the sun. You can admire and need them but you really cannot touch them.
It takes much courage and great strength for one to love a straight guy....
Then again...one will always never listens . Here again i am in love with two straight guys. ish.... maybe one in love and the other just excited. In love maybe not the word ,...it's highly interested or whatever it is. The guessing moments are there. 

I Wonder

I wonder will anyone from my place are generous enough to teach me play piano. I'll trade doing their house chores for piano lessons. I am not working so financially i'm retarded. House chores for Piano lessons. Hmmm.. I've always wanted to learn piano so bad. And house chores? I really mean errands, cleaning and stuff. Not sex.

Do You Know?

Imagine that,...... When two person is in love? It's magical! Automatically  many sacrifice would be made and many things  is bound to happen.
 How many of you actually realize that the sacrifice that you made, benefits both parties or is it damaging both parties? Would you know that you are pampering instead of helping? Do you realize that his request is actually ridiculous?  Do you actually know that you are occupied when you promise him fo buy something?
How much should one give? What is the limit? I think there are no answer to that but i guess it's mutual understanding. Cause as always we would give unconditionally. So sometimes maybe we take too much without knowing it. Anyway, i believe i am like that too. Usually i'n the one who gives a lot.
So when someone comes and tell you, something is wrong.. Don't shut t5hem up. Process their words and think. Maybe sometimes the audience gives the best critique. 

I never realised

I want love but I've never realised how much i want it. Sorry guys for not blogging for some time. Kinda busy as i am not working, i tend to look for stuff to do. Hence i gave my hoe an extreme makeover. It just proofs i'm not gay enough. ZIt's messier than before. LOL....... Anyway about "the" LOVE. I have never realised i have wanted it so much. I actually had tears in my eyes when i see just a simple gesture of a guy worrying about another guy. IKinda think of it. I never ever had a guy really hugs me and comfort me or even when i want it i couldn't get it. I think i'm becoming a whore for love. At any moment now if any guy who actually worries about me i think i will melt and grief. Hahha.... lol....Well, things always happens in a weird way. Sometimes in a weird way it will never happens too.

Sulk

I know this sounds pathetic. I'm always in these moods. I apologize. Can i just lay my self  out there in the wild, on the road or pavement and hope someone will hold me and let me cry? Someone who would see me and decides they want to care me. Someone who wants to see if i'm scared. and hold me. Someone who wants to see if i needs to cry and offer me his shoulder. Someone who wants to see if i need a hug just to feel that i'm standing straight.. Someone who wants to see if i needs a friend just so that i could feel a presence of someone i know at my side. Someone who wants  to see if I've prepared breakfast, so that he still knows i care. Someone who wants to secretly waits for me to cover the sheets for him and then goes to sleep. Someone who wants to see if i wake up earlier than him to prepare his clothes so that he knows i still love him. Someone who would watch eagerly at his phone at1pm, for my text so that he knows i still miss him.
I know any strong people would feel that these are just weak. I just started my new job. Every single people are watching my every single steps just to see if i fit my position. So i felt scared. All my best friends has gone to work in Singapore. I am really left alone here. I'm always left alone at home. I know there are nice staff at work but i can't take it as i am really sad that i am all alone. I am in great fear now. I have to put up a strong mask everyday at work. I got no one to turn to when in fact i'm so scared inside.

Yes

      In the midst of all my problem's and the never ending problems that arise through out my living days, YES i do reach out at every opportunity i have. I'm not really all that sad in real life. I guess it's because i never show one bit of sadness in reality and in virtual i pour it all out. well, i guess this also how one would really know one person's true self. Maybe. Got really excited at work today cause it's Oscar the next day. I take off every year on this day. Oscar really boost my energy a lot. I guess watching people's success would actually makes you wanna achieve something in life. Well then got a text from Bumble Bee... he is going to resign and work in Singapore. It means he will be in the neighbor country and i really can't see him anymore till the next time he comes back again for holidays. He who i knows we will never get together and who i also loves dearly would actually be very far from me. It gives me a little panic attack. I worry of his safety. He who always likes people to prepares everything for him and he who is still a kid in so many ways would actually be living alone. It's so strange and I'm bloody afraid that he might be scared over there. It really felt like you permitting your child to move out the first time. What if he felt lonely? Who is there to cheer him up? He is so used to computers before sleep, and he doesn't have one when he is there. He who always needs to change his toothbrush every two months. Does he even know he has to prepare so many little things like bed sheets, food. He who drinks a lot of water, who is there to prepare for him? and he likes them cold. Does he knows he has to buy toilet rolls? OMG this is freaking me out!!! Though i really let him be by himself but from time to time i check. Least he is near. Now he is far and i don't know how. I hate to see him go sad. His puppy eyes really makes me cry. I am really worried that there will be no one there to comfort him when he really needs it. He is like a fragile piece of jewel to me. I'm always afraid to hurt him. I always hate to smear it. I look at him when he is asleep and i love smelling his forehead when he is asleep. I always will make sure i kiss and brush his forehead while he is sleeping so that he felt safe and then i goes to bed. I always will make sure the room is cold enough for him to sleep or makes sure he is properly covered during the rainy days. I always tells him good night before i sleep (he is asleep of course), my words would always be "Good night stupid boy" and i never sleep before he sleeps. Didn't realize i have been doing that for the past 6 years already. I wish him all the best. You be good and really take care of yourself aight?

Here i am

I think if anyone is to get an Oscar for repelling friends, i would get it. LOL.... i didn't get a single Christmas text at all. What the hell!! Hmmm..... here i am again spending my time at home and didn't go out. Well, as long as i don't feel bad. It's okay actually. hahhhaa....... Merry Christmas everyone. :) Here i need to wish some people. To my greatest love...... Bumble Bee, Abba and Jay Brannan. I actually got a reply of e-mail from Jay Brannan!!!!!! How cool is that!!!! It really feels great and ironic hahahah....... :) ............... I know I'm day dreaming. Of all he's doing but still he thinks that he is lonely. I am angry when he does that but still, Can't say not . Cause people do feel like that when they felt alone somehow. Like what I'll do. I look for the slightest light available in the dark. Imagine and dream. It somehow helps you through. It's really stupid and brainless to say that i actually like Jay. Like i say..... I DREAM. :)
Sincerely i would wish i could always be around him as a friend at least. I can see my self lingering around him and being totally ignored. Maybe taking his tantrum once in a while always get scolded for doing stupid stuffs... but still I'm thinking of what should i cook later on. Or where should i take him to eat or even what food would make him happy. Then what should i do for tomorrow morning. Have i ironed his top for tomorrow's show? Did i wash his socks? Is his jeans still wearable. I think i should start going through his pockets for rubbish as he always chuck stuff in it and don't take out. I sound like a casalinga.. lol... well these are things one should share doing. Can't be only him doing it. Oh no i haven't wrap his Christmas present...But as usual I'm glad I'm around to make sure nothing tragic happens. Hahah.... it sounded like I'm more than a friend. but well, these are the things i enjoy doing. it's the sweetest stuff and when you see him smiles you'll know it's worth it...........

TWO

Two guys in my life that gives me the most impact. I miss them dearly. One is Aba (not his real name). A writer who works from home. We've never met. We chatted over the net for some time. It started two years ago. He's an euration. I've only seen his picture. Well looking. We then proceed in chatting through text messages. I love texting him. He always manage to make me feel good. Somehow he sounded very mature. Makes me felt very stable. Though i know it's fantasy. Through out the first year. We've never spoken of sex nor meeting up. It's actually the first time i ever speak to another gay and didn't start with sex in my mind. He's always kinda flirtatious. But funny deep down inside i know we'll never be together. He's always very lazy too. Always wake up late but make sure his job is done. A very charming guy cause he always make sure to buy gifts for his parents. Or treats them out for dinner from time to time. Aba, is the only guy that actually made me felt love. I know it's nut case. It's only texting. I'm clear that this is virtual. Ironically, we understands it's okay and we understands we won't go overboard loving each other ga-ga-ly. It's mutual.   We complaint and story each other bout the guys we've met and our scandals. The sex scenes. Ha ha....... Well it all ended. One fine day, he stopped texting. After a month i found out that everything and every profile regarding him are deleted. I'm not angry. Cause it's not his duty. I just missed him dearly and begin to worried Shit. I pray that he is doing great and healthy. Fingers crossed. Nothing severed happen. I do still text him every now and then. At least i know There's one person that is wishing him well. 

Ambititon

Ambitious is good. What do you think of  "Crap Frame" hahha...... Well i thought of naming my new frame that. hope it's something that i could actually have some actuall success. But it takes me hours to just finish one. Does it really worth it? Hmmm..... Well.... if you had a guy asking you what is your type? and then later asking "are you talking about me? What does he actually meant by that??? Well, this guy is a great guy. He is almost everything i wanted. but everyone needs to know each other to love each other. I'm trying to get to know him. Having signs of him texting me not "just" replying me. but there seem to have something that wierd bout him. He seems to stop a conversation ("texting" i mean) just like that. is that normal? i'm begining to think he fainted or something. I also caught him lying. Once. not that it really matters but should this to be taken into account?? Well, hope what ever i'm doing will flourish... really pray hard!!! He wears braces. Thats sexy!!! He He....

Singular

I'm someone who (i think don't get lucky with intimate love) never had a date. Well i did, but it's just a month.It was as it should be but i think i back out. Well better not waste his time. It sounded easy but i am trully sorry for what has happen. I've never had a bf. Hence i think thats why even or whenever i'm around a "GUY" a really mannish ones, i felt safe and that longing attraction is so strong. Or it's actually sent back to me by this guy? Everyday if i goes back at 10pm, without fail i'll sure see this guy. His body shape is not what i'll go gaga over, (i think it's his shirt thats very long.) but there's something in him that i really got attracted to. Recently i noticed that he actually acknowledges my presence. Well, not by saying hi or anything but just knew he knows i'm around. Heehhe.... He's cute and fresh. A boy perhaps. Lets see what will happens next time, But too bad i finish at 6pm tomorrow. I think i'll only get to see him the next day.