A big risk.

Thanks there, for your strong embrace Mr.Hombre. Really thanks. I needed it a lot. Don't let go till i finish crying okay. :) Aiks!! To think i'm holding up and trying to not tell anyone. Hope i could stand my own flame. :) Well, i've decided to confront my manager abaout my prob. Something happened and i screwed up some reports. Well, it burnt my manager up the wall and she's not talking about it instead just ignored me and giving strong hints that she's angry. I'm really at fault here. No one to blame. I own it up and apologise to her. By the way it's just really her to act this way. Maybe she's afraid that if she open her mouth there will be fire roaring out.  Hmmm... it has been two days. Finally i've decided to ask her to scold me. I actually want her to scold me. At least it gets out of her system and mine too. And we can work in a better condition. I guess tomorrow i'll pop the question. This tragedy here this time got me to think hard weather Should i quit my job? It hit me that, I gave up so much for this job, something that i believe in so much but this job never stops hurting me back. Time, Money. Future. Anyway i met Eric just now on my way home. He is in the most beautiful mood taday, hence he looks incredibly cute taday. Get to talk quite a lot with him and some laugh too. Well, at least there is some laugh today. :) Thanks again Mr.Hombre. You take care and everyone have a great great day ahead aight.... Cheers

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Well it turns out Eric is attached. Well.... I've tried. :) Anyway it doesn't means we couldn't be friends. The other guythat i kinda like too has already stop texting me. All because his beloved ex couldn't stop re-contacting him. I don't understand, his ex complaint that thier 2 year relationship is dull and ask to break up but couldn't stop luring him. What's da point?? He this guy also is kinda a fool. Well can't say a real fool. I admire his loyalty and i understands him emotionally. If i'm him i think i'lll also still put hope in this broken relationship. Well, wish him all the best. So there's no more guys for me to hope anymore. I have to wait again...... Work has been dull. I work with passion but the brand and my brand manager lets me down. I kinda in a very dissapointed zone here. Major dissapointing zone. I feel bored and hesitates to go to work now.

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I saw him again. Let's call him Eric.The guy i ga ga over from the train (LRT). It's just ironic. I've been wanting to show him to my friends but when ever my friends are around he won't show up. After some time that i didn't see Eric, Today i get to see him. I've been trying to smile to him so that i could establish so sort of conversation but he just won't look me in the eye.!!!.... I know Eric know my existance. You know that feeling where you know that he's trying to check you out but not wanting you to know he is looking? That wierd sweet chemistry?? That wierd but sweet feeling. Eric always stands behind me when ever we're queing up for the train. I never get to know untill we enter the train and turn around and WALLA...... damm....he's behind me. but when i realised that his back would be facing me already cause the entrance is at the other side. IT"S ALWAYS LIKE THAT.!!!  Damm... i really need all the guts and luck to start talking to him. This feels like a fly flying around and buzzing too long around me.  Thank god today when i dare myself to look at him and he did look me in the eye like a fraction of a second. I'll take that as a great progress...