How could it be? Or...

I was shocked to the core a while ago. I mean literally just now. I've mentioned about this friend somewhere in my blog. He is actually the only friend who brings me out these days. Tully appreciated. We have known for years. We always does out. Hangs out at a affordable places.  We clicked a lot. I don't see him as my boyfriend though i almost treats him like one. You know like the BFF kind. Anyway. we do many stuff together and he always says i understands him more than anyone he knows. Wierd  enough we never do stuff that goes much out of our routine. Today we went out of our routine and have a drink at a more high end place. He is different!! Pretentious. .Quite a jerk and kinda obnoxious. I'm very disappointed. I guess all these while i've only know him at his comfort zone. I also kinda disturbs me that what if we are in a relationship? Today makes me think how big the relationship goes. So many to learn and explore.  It's really disappointing.  

After Movie Syndrome

Syndrome? LOL.... i just woke up and i'm already listening to the movies theme song. Suddenly my room is so calm. Suddenly i feel i can do anything big. Suddenly i want to make the world smile. Suddenly i can do anything because i know my love is there. (of course that's imagination) The comment i posted was right. Suddenly i felt like falling in love again. Suddenly smiling is the right thing to do even before i open my eyes in the morning.
Such strong movies are really important to the world. Simple with piercing messages. I hope i did light up someone elses heart by introducing this movie. DO COMECO  AO FINN

Blissfully Heartwarming

I have heard about this movie for years already. Only last week i found a link to download this movie. I'm speechless while and after watching it. It's simple but it hits the spot. Amazing and exciting but you felt calm and warmth at the same time. found one of the comment on this movie at you tube.

" love this song... i mean is so peaceful... and im obsessed with the movie...!!! ... i mean how far could love go!???... im not gay... but i love this movie... i love everything bout this movie... i jut love it!!!... it makes me want to fall in love!!!... with a man or woman!!... (im bi, yes and it does exist!)... jajajaaa...""


Below is one of the score that scored big time.  

I can't stop smiling.

BL33N

Was searching for BL33N. Couldn't seem to open it. I thought it's opening in MAY. Anyway then i saw a blog that interviewed the two guys that made Bl33n happen. They are actually a married couple. Matthias Vriens Mcgrath and Donavan. Look at their wedding picture. It's almost fictional. Two such beautiful guys could get together, supporting each other. I think fairytale do happen. Such an inspiration.  

I Made a Wish

I have this habit of talking to the moon. Everyday when i sneak out to smoke then i'll make wishes. Then i'll take pictures of it. Yesterday i made a random cheeky wish. My wish came through right away. It happened so fast. It happened in a very wrong way though. Then again it happened in a bad way as well. Somehow i'm glad it happened to me and not anyone else. Very weirdly ironic. Now it makes me think has the moon been making my wishes comes through all these while? It's nice when you are broken and you have something to believe in. Rationally or irrationally. 

INTRODUCING DANIEL MACEDO

Just saw this model in one of this fantastic blog. Superlicious. He has a pair of killer eyes. Like a porn Barbie's eyes but it's not porn at all on him. My god, he is like a revolutionary new age high end gourmet. 

What is that feeling?

I was born on the day Princess Diana and Prince Charles got married. Thats why my middle name is Charles. Since then i kinda grew up explaining to people why my name is so. When i heard about the tragedy, i weep inside and then i went to my room to release my tears. Frankly speaking,  i don't know her. Untill today I don't even know when is her birthday or even pay extra attention checking on her details or news. I was surprised i would feel so. Maybe because i grew up, or shall i say we all grew up, seeing her pictures appear once in a while in the news, on paper or magazines. Every where we look, we will see her pictures.  I guess i felt like something is missing. Her ever iconic pictures through out my childhood somehow made me felt close to her. It's like i grew up with her around. It's like our childhood teddy bear. When we loose it, we will felt it's presence is not there. Every now and then when i see her or hear about her, i will feel a mild tightness in my chest, but at the same time her image always makes me feels that everything is gonna be okay. It's truly a great loss to the world. A precise definition of "God needs an angel. So he take her away"  I am grateful that she left behind two angels to continue her legacy.