ZAP

Do zap me with electricity. Not doing anything lately. Everything is a distraction. I am bound to babysit everyday and yet the question of "Why am i not doing anything" sill comes up. Duhh!! it's because you bloody ask me to babysit!! That's why!! You all single handedly deconstructed my almost perfect life. I am not blaming. Just don't find fault with me when you are utilizing me. Consuming my time means extra free time for yourself. Tell me !! What have you done to improve the situation?

Passing The Days

Remember the Security guard that i mentioned about? the sexy security guard that lets me suck? He is leaving Malaysia in November. Relocating at Germany. Hmm... and i thought that i finally found a sex partner Well sort of, cause he is straight. Though it's all i can suck but it's gonna end soon. I don't like these feeling of "it's gonna end soon". I bloody hope that i am not going to be emotionally attach to him in any ways!!  He was acting weird yesterday though. He kept on stares at me when i am not looking. He says that he wants to know more girls and hope that i could introduce some of my girl friends. Ishh... Such a retarded evening!!
I felt that whatever that i've done recently, is all purely just to sabotage myself. This is crazy. I am not being productive at all. I felt so heavy. Being sleepless isn't helping at all. It's such a nuisance really. What's worst, i felt like eating big chunks of meat all the time. It's not the taste that i am craving for but it's the feeling of my teeth sinking into the chunks of boneless meat that i am craving for. Lolzz.... nuts!!

SWEET

I really like this. It's sweet. Very sweet!!
(Tension Sexual 03 El Otro (The Other One) TLA release)
Super love the ending. I know such relationship does exist. It's amazing right??  Once there is this guy that i just knew.  Came drinking with me cause he quarreled with his girlfriend. Good night and lots of chat.  I asked him about his best friend. He told me that they grew up together and went through many fire and storms together. He made a confession. He said that he kissed his best friend before. So (to me) that was normal, but it's the way that he said it... he stares into thin air and speaks in slow motion  " I kissed him before... and i really love him" the way he delivered it made me almost believed that they have some scandals going on but nope. It's just pure straight bff love. Is it called bromance?? Is there a word for it ?? (that doesn't mean gay)

And this one is simple but tempting!! Reminds me a lot about the public transport years.
(Tension Sexual 02 El Primo (The Cousin) TLA release)

So Bored!!!

Was watching CNN yesterday. Featured Brazil. I was a bit upset cause they scrutinize on the progress of Brazil towards the big games that they are hosting. Well, just thought that even if it's not up to par, we should salute on the effort invested. To be fair they did feature some compliments to them as well, but i think it's just complimentary. 

Been reading my FB quite much lately. Usually i just scroll through but  due to boredom i started reading some. There is a gorgeous looking caucasian who is madly in love with this chubby asian guy. I think he is malaysian. Looking at the way their Fb goes i think the asian is not that excited about the relationship. The caucasian instead were madly in love. Then recently, zero post from both of them. I hope nothing bad happen to them. 

Then there is this other person who always gets lots of comments from people. I didn't realize it at first, but the more i see the more i feel that this guy has nothing to do but to show off. Every post is genuinely showing off. It's annoying. Sometimes i wonder does he even notice it or not. 

Anyway... it has been boring recently. Then i can't seem to sleep at night. Been digging the fridge for food when i can't sleep. I love my bed. I really love it. I dream about it when i am out. I would miss my bed when i am out. But when i am sleeping on it? I can't sleep. :(

I wish i never see him again.

I  de-friended a friend a while ago. Well actually i did it months back and eventually get back to be friends again after a while. This time it's for real. I don't think i could take his shit anymore. This time.. i made it quite clear by asking him to delete his FB of my list. When you felt like tons are lifted off your shoulder and you had zero remorse?? That's when you know you've made the right decision. 

YAY!!!

FAKE

So fake. So fake. This person chatting beside me is so fake. If only I could punch him. I don't know he is really excited about his meeting or he is just a happy guy but he is obviously over excited. Iisshhhh!!!! 

Met an Iranian guy the other day. He always hang out at the park too. Always saw him there so just say hello when ever cross path. Then I will go sit at my bench. The other day he wanted to chat. He called me to sit beside him when I walked passed him. So I did. It was like chicken and duck talk. So difficult to get my words across. Then suddenly he received a call. He talked for so long. Then I told him that I wanna go. He hold my hand and ask me to wait. So I waited, but his conversations never ends. Then I woke up. Again he asked me to wait. After a while, he ended his conversation and continue to chat with me again. This time all of a sudden his English is super fluent. He asked. " are you gay?" I said yes. Then he asked me again " you don't like girls?" I said no. Then another question, " can you suck me?" I answered no. Cause he is kinda rude in some ways. Right after I said no. His face changed and with a shuhh gesture he said " you can go" and looked away Then he said.... So many cute guys are interested at his cock. I laugh and said " I am not" and walked away. These pest. Can't even understand the common language but when it comes to sex they suddenly could understand English so well.  I am so glad that I could reject this egoistic male chauvinist. 

Mom

My mom just used four different ways to complaint about one matter at one go. Jaw dropping!!! Some more she says she doesn't nag! Huh????