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I love this picture above. I really love the equal clash of both sexes. I think that is damm sexy, where there are touches of femininity and the masculinity is still there. Such synchronization are hard to achieve. Just like managing life itself. There must be just enough of everything, just to appear as normal. To look better? That's, extra effort if you are not born with such privilege.

Anyway i started blabbing about such stuff cause i am angry at my mom who messed up the living room right after i have clean it up!! Lollzzz....... It just makes my effort seems irrelevant. My mom likes to hang the laundry in front of the house and she'll hang it in the living room if it's not dry. She doesn't want to hang it at the back of the house out of convenience. So it's just like you spend hours doing the make-up on your face but, before you go out you dap on the pimple cream on your face. 

It's so tiring that i have to go through these in my own home. I just don't wanna quarrel anymore. it's damaging and it eliminates all the effort that we've give in to bond. It's really not easy to synchronize. It's really tiring that every time i have to suit up my armour right before i step out of my ROOM. I have to always be on guard. Be on guard not as in be prepared to fight, but it's to be prepared to take in as much shit as possible so that i don't transform into a samurai and karate kick my mom!! 

HEY hey

 Give me a great conversation and love me. 

Lolzz... that seems desperate. Maybe i am. Maybe i am. Maybe i am just frustrated of the amazing identical "everyday" that i am going through. What happen to everyday is a brand new day? Everyday seems to be exactly the same. Even the customers that enters where i hang out too are all the same. To make it worst... they even dress the same everyday!!! (uniforms.) I hang out at 7e now these. (to the ones who knows, it's not the same one) this one is nearer to the park. 

As i've mentioned my "everydays" are not very exciting. So there is this uncle who is there drinking every night at the pub two shops away. He walked by today and he has to make my day gloomier by asking me a question.  " Why are you here everyday?"  (WITH a disgusted face) I was quite insulted with that face. All i know is that i could smell my underwear and scratch my crotch there if i want to. I just don't understand how could someone bare to hurt such innocent souls??

 At the mean time. I hope i would meet more genuine and sincere friends. When you know one person long enough, their stripes begin to show. Everyone that i know now are all jerks!! Taking advantage of me every single chance they had. I've repeated this so many times and i thought maybe thats the only one, but it keeps on coming. Am i a jerk magnet? I wanna jerk something else then!!! lolzz....  I hope i'll meet more genuine humans soon. 

I think that a great conversation does wonders. Nobody wanna talk anymore though. Thats sad. Be organic Make a new friend a day guys!! (Che wahhh) lolzz...... Have a great great week ahead people. 

My Friend.

I always have this dream of being together with this one friend. He is away in Singapore. we've never spoken for nearly 10 years. Yes it's true that i've had crush on him during high school but it has been years. Chances of me thinking of this guy yearly is near to zero. So weird that i always had dreams about him. Worse. it's the kind of dreams that would leave you feeling sexy and throbbing when you are awake. Is the big guy up there trying to tell me something? Wants me to look for my friend perhaps?? Or it's his way of telling me... not to worry, cause that's my future. Hahah.... hmmm... how i wish it is .and ... i'll pray very very very hard. 

Hmm.. i find my self turned on easily recently. anything basic is enough to turn me on. Like the slightest bulge appearance. The simple nose tip smelling the penis. Even just with the ULTRA slow lips sucking can make me cum. It's like after drinking. When your whole body felt warm and sensual. I felt it the whole day. Just the other day, a guy sat in front of me wearing a soccer shorts with his legs wide opened, is enough to make my head wet. Compare to last time... it's only when there is a visible bulge  or a visible penis line then only i would have reactions. Well...It's either he is killer sexy or i am just a whore on heat. 

So Much

Yeah, it's a Sunday and we are suppose to laze around. I think it's hard to laze when there are plans running prematurely in your semi functioning brain. It just forbids you to sleep or rest, and you can't do anything else but to attend to that annoying plans. 

Hahahah... it's not any gigantic plans or anything though. It's a collection of  little little stuff that i should upcycle in my home for Christmas and CNY. It's damm bloody near already. I've started quite late planning for my garden. Now all the plants are not fully grown and i hope it would mature just in time for CNY.

Times like that the net has all the wonderful ideas. it helps you to speed up so many unnecessary process. Then again it also makes you wanna do so much more stuff. lolzz......  Have a great week ahead guys. 

I was CHATTY

I was chatty after drinking these days. I mean usually after drinking it's either i sleep or i become a devil. Just these days i seem to talk instead of doing the usual. Hmmm.... The last time i was quite emo. Then yesterday it happen again. I seem to talk with tears coming out at wrong que's and my story doesn't make sense. Hahahah... it seems that i Begin the story and skip to the middle and suddenly it's the end. lolzzz....... Thank god i didn't do this in public. I was at home with a friend but it's still embarrassing nevertheless. She's back from Singapore but she's back there again today. 

I was talking about Bumble Bee though. Never knew i missed him so much. I think he is not coming back for CNY next year. Then Refflesia try to contact me again via text. I didn't reply, cause i genuinely felt happier without his presence in my life. 

Shocker

What do you think of when you are doing nothing? I tends to find stuff to do. Hahahah.... well sometimes. Most of the time i laze around. Drinking coffee is a must though. I wouldn't feel like i am resting if i don't have coffee by my side. 

Then of course when you are feeling all at ease, the devil comes in to be our imaginary "masseur". Though i know many of you get "Live" ones. :)

So just when you feel like you are contented and have done so much and then you bump into these pictures below? You just rather not feel anything at all. 

These things are made entirely out of paper.  They are called Paper Sculpture. Where did these people come from?? Where is it gonna stop? Everything is getting extraordinary now. Just when you feel that you have done the max and reach the impossibles? Then when you see these stuff? You totally feel like you're nothing compared to that. I felt almost embarrassed. Such a mockery to my entire being. It just makes me wonders that "what have i been doing all my life?" I should Intensified my life's productivity. Waste no more time and be modest. Really really modest. 

Custom or needed to be customized?

Is it a custom in your home to wait for everyone to have a meal at the same time? I thought i do but apparently it's not a custom anymore. Actually i wanna let this go but it really kinda bothers me. Everyday i have 4 other person around me but i am having lunch dinner all by myself. Cold Cold meals!!

So only special occasion it is being practice. I always thought that these practice are really warm and respectful. I love the moment where you can update and laugh with everyone and it's a beautiful moment captured in time.

I personally love to entertain my guest in my dining room. It just seems pleasantly intimate. Actually it's just convenient. Never a dull moment. Don't feel like talking? you start eating. Nobody is talking? You pull out the wine. Talk too much? You cut a watermelon in gag size. Raise your glass for a toast if the conversation gets ugly. Angry? You wake up and wash the dishes. lolzz......

I always have thought that this is a no brainer custom that stuck in the Chinese world. So apparently i am an ancient.