Haishhh!!!!

I can't sleep. I still can't sleep. I only sleeps at 6 in the morning everyday. Then I would wake up in odd hours like 3pm or 4pm. Then many stuff can't be done. Hope I could twist that around soon before everything screws up. On the bright side, I am glad that I still manage to get some things done.  Though its not muh but I hope these little done, are enough to motivate me to keep moving. 

It's Friday Already?

Before you know it, it's already Friday. At my usual cafe and my muse just went off with his bf. I think. Cause his bf that just came, sway quite a bit. Hmmm..... What am I gonna do for the rest of the night? 

Anyway, there is a staff here that I am quite fond of. Totally ugly but super skinny. Super tall too. Every time I see him I just felt like smiling and i always thinks that he is damm sexy. My radar tells me that he is straight. Never ask and Never really told him mine too. I've only officially chat with him when I'm here... Only like... Twice.  He use to greet me like I am his best friend or something. You know lah these cafe's staffs are always over enthusiastic. Then suddenly.... There is no more such greetings from him. He stills get my drinks done before I make my order and everything. (Cause I always order the same.) He just doesn't acknowledge my presence anymore. I know it's  a petty thing but it just doesn't feel good. It feels like I have cheated on him or something. Yorrrrr....... How la? These straight guys!!!! Always gives me problems like that. 

You know I would think that his radar told him that I am gay. So it make sense that the sudden silence, but he still tends to my orders. Even when other people are on duty. I'll understand if you are homophobic.  I'll stay away, but.....You know now it just feels like you want and then you don't want.

    Slap me again guys??? Lolzzzz......... Have a pleasant weekend guys.

Sit

I want to be able to sit like that. Not to feel lazy and strengthless, but with proudness and stability. Let me suck a dick today and I would celebrate it by being successful. Woooopppss!!! I think that just came out. Was typing too fast  LOLZzzzzz.....  I secretly hope it would happen though. Ka ka ka.... Someone? Please give me a push!!  Slap me at the same time. 

it Was Dangerous

                                                      

Routine check up today and I am okay. Surgery next month . This time can't delay. Have to do it already. Hope I don't  gain weight like the last time. 

I Have a confession . I drank. I thought I would have to do surgery this time. So I just get a few cans and chill alone at the park. Then met a friend at 7E after drinking. He bought me a few more while chatting. I think because I didn't drink that much for some time already. Just a split second. The next thing I know, I woke up in my room in the morning. Imagine I can't remember walking home, crossing the roads and across the park, and I got in the house without anyone noticing. (Quite proud about "no one noticed") but yeah it was dangerous. I know. I know. I didn't anticipate that the night would end up like this. I just thought of a simple pleasant night at the park. Well, through this too, I got to know how shitty that "friend" is. Cause he didn't walk me home, even at that state. I always knew I am not me when I am drunk. It would be the more outspoken and extremely confident me, or just sleep, when I am drunk.  I always tell my friend that, if the usual me is the drunk version of myself? I am sure I am a successful person. Ka ka ka....... Only God knows what I did that night. 

What Do You Think?

What do you think when a guy came three times before your first cum? Intrigue? Turned off? 

HAIR

Too bad!!! I have unfortunate natural curls. Then I recall the tragic look, when my hair went greasy. I looks like a pimp from the 80's, and it has to be the one from a brothel. A brothel from Hong Kong that located beside the immigrant dock. So I intend to get this style instead( the pic above). What do you think? Hope my head shape suits this style though.  Would go shorter if I could. My hair at the sides tend to erect as it grow. So I would need hair cuts like every two weeks. That would make me go nuts if I do. 

Hair

I realize that when I have part of my face covered with hair, I look better. Maybe I should consider this hair. Leave it long enough to cover half of my face.  What do you guys think? You think this hair is outdated???