Bumble Bee

Have i ever elaborate "Bumble Bee"?

It's in one of these lunch time at work at Kim Gary. "HA HA HA HA HA" I never stops listening to this laugh from the other end. Bloody annoying!! Then when i am having dinner there after work....after i made my order and when i am about to light my cigarette..."HA HA HA HA"  that bloody laugh again. I swear i never rolled my eyes with such enthusiasm before. I hate it so much and i begin to imagine he must have been a useless rich kid boasting and flaunting with his friends. I saw his face this time and it definitely looks like what i thought. He is not in uniform any uniform and he is with a bunch of college friends. Looks exactly like a rich kid who doesn't needs to worry of the end of the world and laughs really LOUD!!!
I actually have to put up with his laugh almost every day at Kim Gary. I begin to hate him so much. Ishh.... after lunch one day.....while at work my area manager came.... introducing him to me. He is hired for work at my place. Of all people. It has to be The HA HA boy!!! Well then... thank god i wasn't the store head at that time...so i don't have to do much with him...just being a fake nice colleague.
At that time, most of my colleague likes to have drinks after work or sometimes.. hit the clubs... my home was just walking distance from the mall where i work and great enough the place everyone hangs out are also around my home. The Ha..Ha...boy also lives nearby but my home is actually nearer. So guess what? He likes to crash at my house. I was renting of course there are no other place for him to sleep but beside me. Hmmphh...thank god he doesn't laugh while sleeping.. Then one night we had sex...cause we were super drunk

Months passed and he practically lived with me already, cause we hangs out in the same group. I begin to helps him to monitor his comforter when it's cold at night. He usually gets the mosquito bites..then i find myself begin to prepare repellent for him..then without me knowing it i begin to prepare meals for him..well it's take out but i always make sure he has something to eat. Any outing are without question i would automatically count him in and he would do the same. I realized that i begin to be protective of him. Now every night i would sweep his hair then smell and kiss his forehead and actually called him stupid boy before i sleep. I always make sure he sleeps before me that's why i could do that....I thought we were very casual. I never thought that as time goes by i am falling in love But i have never mentioned it. In fact "WE" never mentioned it. Through out the journeys we always discuss or chat about other guys. Cute guys and who ever he meets.

It never sinks in till one day i realize a guy starts giving him gifts. This guy who is actually a friend of the tenant's downstairs. He came just to crash for a few weeks. I remembered that one day...he sat in front of me and kinda tells me in sort of a guilty manner that he is going out with the guy downstairs for a drink. Then i begin to feel the streaking pain in my chest. Then shockingly it came out from my mouth. "Please don't do this, you know i love you. This guy is just downstairs, it hurts and you are doing it in my home" He then hugs me...when he did i started wiping off my tears. I am not crying but my tears are overflowing. Then suddenly...he freaked out..... "Where is my ring?" he asked.... (the gold ring that the guy down stairs gave him.) it was funny though...my reactions is to search for the ring right away...never found it though. Well then i let him go as i thought we were never really in "agreement" to be exclusive before. He and that guy never worked out though.

After that we kinda still maintain the "casual" thingy for a few more years. We were together when i moved from Sunway to Damansara then to  Subang  and  till i bought my first home in Subang. Through out the years i on my part gone to the extreme length just to see him feel pleasant around me. That worry free look of his are really a priceless sight. Suddenly helping him to do all the petty stuff even like taking a glass of water seems so nice. It's at these time too he fell in love with a guy from...err...can't remember but it didn't work out after a year. It was at Damansara where he got a soft toy from IKEA. A dog... light brown and he decided to name it Bumble Bee. So weird...known him for years and suddenly he sleeps hugging a soft toy.

Well...as it goes on he starts to be close to my family members and he even becomes my mom's god son. It's really sweet when you hear your family members talking about the guy you love.  We always cannot get much far away from each other. When i got transferred to Mid Valley he did too and then when we resigned we too got offered into the same boutique at KLCC. Then one day he decided to resign and work at Pavillion. That's when he decides to go home.

So that's when we never really see each other any more but we still do hangs out at clubs together. Then after a year he decided to work in Singapore...I just got worried spelled out of my face when i heard that. Who will prepare his meals? who does his laundries? Mosquitoes? What if when it's cold? Who makes sure he is okay when he is drunk?  Who could he ask for help when he is in trouble in the land of strangers? But I never really came to contact him though cause my sis chats with him through Facebook. So i still could keep track that way. Two years after hat, i got a little traumatic when i hear he is going to continue his studies at Australia.There is where he is now. doing fine but it still worries me lots, cause he is practically alone.

I am okay and am getting use to it..till recently i attached an old friends wedding. He couldn't attend. That's a bnummer . Then one of my friend skype him through out the whole sessions. i felt a bit sad cause he was there alone in his tiny room and we here are all surrounded by friends. The only comforting thing is that he has gained weight. A good sign. Then i felt even a tighter squeeze in my chest when i went home after the wedding the next day...to my hometown and saw my mom made a collage of her beloved cute children with his pictures in it too. Hwuuaoooaaahhh. I guess i never stops loving him. I missed him then at the same time i don't mind him having a new happy relationship. I just felt that i should be around, a  within reach distances just to make sure he is alright. I always wonder what kind of  love that i have for him? Not a bf love love but it's just plain love.