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I offered to pay for my friend's drink. So i say "wait!!...together" I pointed to my friend while looking at him. His response ... "Owh...together huh?" WITH a smirk. So my friend defended that i am not his type and all... (We are quite a regular there..i mean there is a mamak outside 7E, everyone there thinks that my friend and i are together) (Somehow to the mamaks it's weird to see me appearing without him) Anyway I kept quiet cause i never "officially" told him i was gay before. Yeah i know you guys must be thinking that...it must be obvious by now. Thing is errr.....you know how sometimes straight guys react dramatically before and after you officially admit it. So i kept quiet. Went for a smoke before going home. That scene repeatedly appearing in my mind. Was wondering that should i have said something? Went home (still thinking) and i couldn't sleep!!! I got up after flapping for two hours on my bed and decided to pay him a visit. Hoping that i could slip in some explanation while chatting
So at 3 something a.m i walk to 7E. So as usual if i didn't prepare then i will bring "anything" i could find at home to give him. I only found a box of mark & spenser blueberry puffs. Hesitated abit cause it's my favorite. ahahahah..... ok ok, took it anyway. Greeted him... he was walking front from the back. Left it on the cashier and head to the back to get a drink. When i came back to the cashier it was already hidden, cause someone came in. He He He he.. So cute..
Then the person paid and gone. We chat, .then i try to slip in the matter that was bothering me..." "Hey... (forehead felt cold) my friend and i are not together" ahhahaah...trying to make it sound like a joke. (start to feel ridiculous for mentioning it) (suddenly mind went blank...eyes widened suffocating to find something to say immediately so that the situation is not awkward) still ha ha-ing (have to say something now! searching... fast!! fast!! fast!!) ..........in a split second.......... .i spurted "I'm yours...don't worry"!!!! Ka ching!!! eyes widened!! Why do i say that??? Ting!! Ting!! Ting!!! zuuppp I could feel my hair behind my neck stood up I don't even dare to look at his face....... then we both started laughing.....I Mr.Super Red Face...then turns to the back pretends to take a straw and say bye. Then zoom..off!! My hands were shaking when i walk away.OMG...DON'T WORRY??? and I'M YOURS???? I can understand I'm Yours but DON'T WORRY?? where did that came from?? Why did i even say that??? Really ...this is really OMG!!!
OMG! If a guy says that to me, I would go awwww.... with weak knees and melted heart. So romantic! Hehehe... Now I wanna know more of this story. :p
ReplyDeleteAwhhhh...how nice if he felt this way. Will sure to let you know what happens the next time i see him. That would be tonight..later i think. Fingers crossed. I don't expect anything... great but just as long as he don't be afraid of me...it will be sufficient. :)
DeleteLol... Well, at least he gave you a positive respond - laughed. (:
ReplyDeleteHahhaah... yeah it is. That laugh saves both of our asses in so many ways. Well... I hope he actually heard my words right cause he has this thing that he tends to do all time when he don't understands what i say. He laugh it off.
DeleteErrr... Lol... Hahahaha... :p
DeleteHmm...but you already know that he's straight.
ReplyDeleteWhy ?
you mean .. i know for sure he is str8 or you meant i know he is str8 and i still wanna do it?
DeleteThe latter one.
DeleteWait, he is straight right ?
From my radar he is str8 but he acts along. Like when i gives him gifts he never rejects. When his colleagues joke about both of us he never deny. He always updates me about his news. Things like he suddenly gives me his number actually made me think again. Anyway i think that he is straight ultimately. Maybe he is just being nice to me or actually being mean by "wanting" my gifts. He is returning to Nepal on the 24th of august then he will return two months after that but base in KL. Working in one of the international banks. Yeah i get what you mean by asking why. I guess all i have done is out of a "fond" act. Yeah i know it's stupid, but i don't wanna have regrets. On the "I'm Yours" part it's really something that i really wanna tell him but i never intended to. Cause i know it will make things different. It was a sudden ridiculous impromptu act.
DeleteBesides i never want someone that i have fallen before to be an enemy or sort. Even he is straight i would like to still be able to care in a "bro" way or anything. Couldn't be together but still could be friends. Stuff like that, only that i am a friend that he could turn to for help without any hesitation.
DeleteThe "bro" thing, hmmm...don't think so it will be that same as we sort of have "feelings" on towards him.
DeleteYeah....i get what you mean. I guess i am foolishly being hopeful. Hahahaha......
DeleteWill keep an eye on you...
ReplyDeletewell, it turns out well aint it?
happy weekend =)
I hope he turns out okay. :) How are you?
DeleteI hope so too... but I am worried about you...
Deletebeen busy...
Meeting someone in that manner, and the uncertainty of not knowing what the response will be, is both scary and exciting. They are special moments to be cherished.
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