Broken?

I think i just broke up with my best friend (Rafflesia) Again at times like this he says that i am not being appreciative for crying and doing all those stuff that i did for Samir. He says that i should have been contented that i have ever met Samir at all. That is like telling me that i should be appreciative that i got the job but i don't need to work the job??  Then i told him that i do appreciate of what i've got and me being sad is just because of the sudden void of Samir in my life. I am somehow entitled to be sad right? Come on...... i am making progress here and he has to bring up the subject to evaluate??  It's bad enough that he made me go through it again. Worst he casually brings it up just for the sake of a conversation and doesn't want to stop just because he wants to win the conversation. When does my pain comes in? It's just like when this happens he is at home town for a week and not even a text of concern but meeting me up one week later telling me he wants to meet up because he is worried!!  Owh! I just woke up and walked away.