TWO

You may not know it. I myself didn't know. Other than my family...Rafflesia and Samir is the only two i have. Subconsciously my life dwells around these two. I don't work and i don't take the LRT or the bus or the taxi. Hence i don't get to meet "fresh" souls. My family are always not around. I am always alone at home. I can only be creative at every thing i do. That is to pro long TIME. Basically only these two souls that i get to be in touch with. Without me knowing i am damm invested. I hate Rafflesia but any how when he calls or text i am still happy cause ..suddenly i have life.  LOLZ...i guess no one would think that just by standing in a shop would actually play a huge role in someone's life. That's why Samir's void is a huge blow to me. So when Rafflesia attacked me emotionally just to make a point? I couldn't take it. He deliberately ignored my feelings and really never really understands that i am alone.  Again and again you hurt me.

These are words for Rafflesia actually. Don't think i would ever see him again. So i am documenting it down.