After all these... i guess what i wanted most is that i wish i could do it again. I wish i would be able to do it all over again.. Not to Bumble Bee of course. The next person i am gonna love. The next soul or whoever i am gonna be with. Sometimes i do think that i am weird, because i actually wish that i could serve someone again.lolz...and all i ever wanted back in return is someone to hold me at night. A strong hug at night while i am sleeping. Just so that i could feel safe. Someone who would hugs me so tight so that i would never ever felt that i am falling. So tight that i could feel that my feet is actually connected to the ground. So tight that i would realize that i actually existed. I am so crazy that one night i find my self wondering that is there such thing as "Comfort for rent?"