Continuation from yesterday's post.

Later, at the next stop. more people are pouring in. We have no choice but to make space for other people. I took my bag up and hug my bag now. Thank god my bag was light. But anyhow, at any time i would only use one hand to hug my bag. It's something I'm used to. A naughty hand. Ha ha ha ha...... In this case, The door was on my left and my right is at the corner. So i use my right hand to hug my bag. I adjusted my position and put down my left hand and wanted to tuck my thumb in my pocket. As i was about to tuck, my hand got caught, squeezed between the door and that guy;s crutch!! Our eyes caught and a retract my hand!! (STUPID) (something i regret almost instantly.)  The push doesn't stops there. He got even closer when everyone at the door are pushing. Some passengers actually can't get up at the end. While it happens, I'm in awe. Suddenly my neck tightens, my nose sharpens and my eyes were shut. (you know it's those "shut" where your eye lids giggles?) I swear i felt sweat flowing down my neck. I realized his face is beside my face i can smell his neck. and i'm actually smelling  BVLGARI BLUE.  The one perfume that i categorized as "PHEROMONES" of men. !!!!! I don't even dare to open my eyes. That moment was stunning and sexy. I think i was shaking a little. I felt dizzy and everything seems to be in a slow motion. Everything is just so fiction at that moment. I cannot stop breathing IN. I think i may have steams coming out of my mouth. I dare not open my eyes, cause at the same time i don't want "this" moment to disappear. My imagination went stealth and fast. Then it stops, cause i felt a few cold drips of water dripped on my foot. I still didn't open my eyes, but i lifted my foot and try to wipe it off my foot. As i wipe it, i realized that the water is actually my pre cum. cause the  trail is from above my knee, that is from under my shorts. I didn't realize that i was actually throbbing and oozing pre cums. Ah... that sent me blushing big time. As i moved my hand back into position, i purposely brush across his crutch. Of course my eyes were opened then. He actually looked at me when my hand touches his crotch. i quickly close my eyes, when he looked. I was scared, I just continued breathing. Then suddenly i realized the tip of my nose is touching his ear. I opened my eyes when i felt it, but he didn't move a bit. In fact i think he is trying to caress his ears at my nose. I backed a little bit, cause as much as i desired it, we are still in a train. I can't see his eyes, as our face is almost side by side. I can hear him breathe. I think I'm breathing fire at that time. I cannot explain how disgustingly sensual that moment is. All this while i actually didn't realize that his hand is just beside my bulge. I thought it was my bag that my groin was banging as the train move. I knew that because he suddenly conveniently moved his hands in circular mode on my bulge. As I'm hugging my bag above, and his hands are underneath, so no one can see what he does. I think at that time my mouth were opened and i have to breath. He then actually took my hand and place it on his bulge. All this happened without us looking at each other. Froze for a moment then i started to play with his bulge. I scratched slowly and softly at every slight bulging thing i felt. Then i realized he moved a little, every time i scratch this part near his pocket. So i guess, that should be his head and that would be his sensitive spot. That means.... that's where i should attack. ha ha ha...... I think he did suffered a little, he starts to breath harder and harder. Well.... he did tortured me as well, but he didn't know. Cause my weak point, is him caressing me softly. Feeling his big warm palm, squeezing and teasing me softly. It got me electrified and yes.... yes.... i actually came. I have a hard time controlling myself when i came. I can't even stand straight. I came so much, i don't even dare to see how much cum is on my foot. I guess he knew after that, cause i tend to have this sudden shock when i shoot. He didn't stop after that, he continue caressing me. It turned me on big time. Well, as i am too attacking him at his weak point. I moved my hand further up, as i hope is his penis head. I started to scratch with two fingers in circular mode and my thumb slightly below. Time to time I'll squeeze it hard a while. Then suddenly his leg moved a little, he hold my dick quite hard and he placed his head on my shoulder, like he is fainting or something.  But i could feel the tense in my palm. At that moment too, i was stunned, cause we were in a train. Thank god, no one actually bothered to look. I think. This is by far, the hottest sex i've ever had!!! Wait!! does this considered as sex? LOL.........Of course, there is a second session. We did exchange numbers too, but i didn't text him. Due to my condition now, medically i mean. I don't think i'm fit to it. besides there are some points that i don't like about him, during the second session. He is kinda dominant and lazy. ........

Bulge

Ahh.... woke up kinda late today and have to rush to work. Not many ppl lining up today at the train station. Maybe that explains why is the road are all so jammed. My manager today is really in a great mood. Didn't give me a hard time and that's how i would prefer to spend my last days there. Today is seriously bored at work though. Nothing to see, I guess the cute guys are all on leave today. LOL.... So got back at 7pm today as some last minutes customers dragged my time. so rushed to the train and hope to catch an early train but it did not. It got delayed. *^%#@*^&% Finally when the train arrives i get to stand beside the cutest guy ever!!! I guess its his eyes that makes me kept starring at him. So the train was full of people. It was well pack. This guy that stands in front of the cute guy, actually carries a laptop bag and he pushed it to his bag hence his laptop bag was right in front of this guy's bulge!!!!! So i was faking my sleep in there and had my head face down. But actually i was looking at his bulge. As the train moves i notice that guy's laptop kept brushing this guy's bulge and "the" bulge actually gets bigger. It was well hot and i was out of breath, cause i was so near to wonders and i can't even touch it. All i have to do is just lift up my fingers and i could touch his bulge already. Yes, it's that near.  In a way i felt pity for him because he has no where to turn to  it was so packed that he sort of being trapped there, . LOL.... like being molested with his body tied up. You should see his face. It's like he is being blown, and he has this breathless expression that makes me go crazy. I wonder did he actually cummed or not? ;)

Cold War

My manager Launched "the cold war" finally. Imagine a cold war at work. How childish. I never thought it has to come to this. Well, i kinda predict it. I'm sick of thinking about this set back in my life. Everyday before i goes to work i have to mentally prepare myself. Anyway i'm gonna leave it aside.
Getting off work is my favorite moment now. Everything seems to move in a slow motion once i clock out. I enjoy the moment of me walking to the train station. Seeing everyone who is rushing back or just trying to make their way else where really makes me felt peace. People talking on phones. People laughing . People holding hands. People dreaming. People stressing. I wish i could  watch all this while drinking coffee. When i finally gets in the train it was like a sardines of people. I in my little brain are actually enjoying being squash by some cute guy behind me or my thigh squashing against some guys groins. lol.... such a whore.

Again

I saw him again. Let's call him Eric.The guy i ga ga over from the train (LRT). It's just ironic. I've been wanting to show him to my friends but when ever my friends are around he won't show up. After some time that i didn't see Eric, Today i get to see him. I've been trying to smile to him so that i could establish so sort of conversation but he just won't look me in the eye.!!!.... I know Eric know my existance. You know that feeling where you know that he's trying to check you out but not wanting you to know he is looking? That wierd sweet chemistry?? That wierd but sweet feeling. Eric always stands behind me when ever we're queing up for the train. I never get to know untill we enter the train and turn around and WALLA...... damm....he's behind me. but when i realised that his back would be facing me already cause the entrance is at the other side. IT"S ALWAYS LIKE THAT.!!!  Damm... i really need all the guts and luck to start talking to him. This feels like a fly flying around and buzzing too long around me.  Thank god today when i dare myself to look at him and he did look me in the eye like a fraction of a second. I'll take that as a great progress...

Stares

Just passed the holidays and DURING the holidays are a mixes of pleasure and pain. Pain is when there are so many people who lingers around and so is thier natural body odour. It's unbearable and it really makes my day pain. Pleasure is when they walk pass and most of them don't wears underwear. It's obvious and when thier bulge moves so much and thier outlines are quite obvious. Aiks!! Well, it's eye candy but the guy that i kinda always look at are not back to work yet. Didn't see him for some time already, as i only would bump into him when i'm in the train. The other guy that i'm keeping my hopes up are not taking any first steps yet. Well, should i start it?

Train

I really wonder if i'm gonna grow old alone. But then again excitement are everywhere. Just as simple as taking a train. I love it when there's too many passengers. I feel kinda hot when there are guys standing beside me and are forced to stand real near to me. Well thats what you gets when there are too many passengers, and whatever happens down there are really out of everyone's visual. Like what happen the other day. This boy were right beside who looks super straight and his military hair cut makes him kinda hot. I wouldn't dare to touch him cause i'm not sure if he's straight but of course as the train moves accidental touches happens. Hahhaa.... was normal at first, but then when more accidental touches happens i felt that it's getting harder and easier to reach. I even realise that he adjust himself so that i could accidentally touch him better. I managed to actually grab him a while, when i realised that i already reached my station. Sharks!!! This is a torture. Making me all pump up and i can't end it. Well, at least i had an enjoyable ride. Left and went straight home.