Thursday, September 27, 2012

Charles Einpairs

Hey  guys please do visit this blog and see maybe there are stuff that may excite you. Please never to mention me in that blog. Nothing about this blog too. Cheers!!  Thanks a million.

Monday, September 24, 2012


Could you imagine it? A tattoo shop is called "Long & Hard" Lolzz..... Anyway that was my friend's second shop's failed attempt. Imagine all these straight guys can come up with very very gay names and they don't know it.
While i was drowning two weeks back. One of my girlfriend forced me out. She has to meet this guy who does Muay Thai for pass time that she didn't meet for 5 years. Well according to her... because the sexual tension between them is too strong. I can imagine!!  I am there to neutralized it. :)
So he works in a tattoo shop. Got tattoo all over his body.  Total gentleman and pleasant. Then after 6 hours hanging out in the girlfriend's unofficial boyfriend turn up. This one goes to gym cause it's one of his job criteria. Packed with muscle and this guy also has tattoo all over his body.
Both of them started checking out each others tattoo after introducing. The history and stuff. Pulling down their pants to show the lower back and lower front. They pull up their shirts almost like girls adjusting their bra. Imagine i was sitting on the couch looking at both of them standing there in front of me checking each other out.  Touching each other's body. Holding each other's arm...pulling up shirts...touching butts and touching chest!!!   These straight men never really realize what they are doing aren't they? I never felt so gay before in my life!!! 

Wednesday, September 19, 2012


OH NO!!!!..    OWH NO!!!   Bo liow !!!   BO  LIOW!!! I accidentally unfriended Rafflesia and then accidentally re - requested for friend again.!!! This is what happens if you are Fb illiterate!!  Now i have to face the consequences. Dhhamm!!!  This is so embarrassing!!  Owh NO!!! Bo liow!! bo liow!! Hope he doesn't call me. 

Monday, September 17, 2012

Nice Of You

Thank you guys...dear blogger friend. Well yeah..macam tak payah and tak relevant but kinda changed my mood when i see your comments. It's happy. It's nice. Thanks!!  It's such a treat.


Do What?

Still can't sleep after skipping a day's sleep. Have lots to do tomorrow. Hope tomorrow i am not as shaky as today. 

Sunday, September 16, 2012


I don't think i am obeying myself. I think my heart is following what my head wants and not my head following what my heart wants. Or there is no difference?  This is damaging. 

Thursday, September 13, 2012


Samir called.


When you are in these moods, (i meant sad) you tend to listens to many songs. Sometimes you just wanna scream your heart out. Sometimes you just wish that you could sing. Sounds nice to my self at least.

Wednesday, September 12, 2012


Woke up after two hours of sleep. Dreadful and hot. So hope tonight i could sleep at normal a regular person. 

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

Monday, September 10, 2012


You may not know it. I myself didn't know. Other than my family...Rafflesia and Samir is the only two i have. Subconsciously my life dwells around these two. I don't work and i don't take the LRT or the bus or the taxi. Hence i don't get to meet "fresh" souls. My family are always not around. I am always alone at home. I can only be creative at every thing i do. That is to pro long TIME. Basically only these two souls that i get to be in touch with. Without me knowing i am damm invested. I hate Rafflesia but any how when he calls or text i am still happy cause ..suddenly i have life.  LOLZ...i guess no one would think that just by standing in a shop would actually play a huge role in someone's life. That's why Samir's void is a huge blow to me. So when Rafflesia attacked me emotionally just to make a point? I couldn't take it. He deliberately ignored my feelings and really never really understands that i am alone.  Again and again you hurt me.

These are words for Rafflesia actually. Don't think i would ever see him again. So i am documenting it down.  

Saturday, September 8, 2012


I think i just broke up with my best friend (Rafflesia) Again at times like this he says that i am not being appreciative for crying and doing all those stuff that i did for Samir. He says that i should have been contented that i have ever met Samir at all. That is like telling me that i should be appreciative that i got the job but i don't need to work the job??  Then i told him that i do appreciate of what i've got and me being sad is just because of the sudden void of Samir in my life. I am somehow entitled to be sad right? Come on...... i am making progress here and he has to bring up the subject to evaluate??  It's bad enough that he made me go through it again. Worst he casually brings it up just for the sake of a conversation and doesn't want to stop just because he wants to win the conversation. When does my pain comes in? It's just like when this happens he is at home town for a week and not even a text of concern but meeting me up one week later telling me he wants to meet up because he is worried!!  Owh! I just woke up and walked away. 

Friday, September 7, 2012


So i painted my sister's room closet. Found out the paint was water base after started painting. Then it got messier. well, 14 closet doors are not one easy job to do. I changed the curtains. Love it cause it makes an obvious change in the "change" :) Those doors i painted now looks like a skating ring floor. Somehow i kinda like the accidental defect that I've made. My sister doesn't!!!

Thursday, September 6, 2012

It Repeats

Frozen chilly lonely nights when this "sad event" took place. Being alone and the eerie silence that makes this event so bloody drama. It kept on repeating again and again. It's like the creator never satisfied and thinks that each time it's not cruel enough!!!. Just came back yesterday night from Malacca sending my sister back to work and for good. Now am left alone at home again. Seriously i am not being a baby but just when i am about to move a pace out of it and here I am being sucked in again. Is this some endurance program  for Avengers that i don't know about??

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

Sunday, September 2, 2012

Saturday, September 1, 2012

Adele - I Can't Make You Love Me

Make New Friends

Someone and everyone...including myself suggest myself to make new friends or at least do something out of my norm. To feel better or to heal myself. I didn't go out  but it came to me. My eldest sis had a dinner party at home yesterday with a little bunch of her friend and her bf's new shop's staffs. So i joined in cause i knew a few of them too. Usually i don't. It went quite well. There is an old friend that really misses the olden days and some hi bye friend and also some new friends that is my sisters bf's staff. Was hanging around with my second sis and she made a comment on one of this young guy. "I don't like much about him, he reminds me a lot about Bumble Bee" (Bumble Bee is my first Love ) So i just laugh it off cause i can't see his face clearly anyway as i am partially blind. One of my friend came quite late. When she came.... we sat down and chat while she have her dinner then suddenly she says to me " That guy really reminds me a lot about Bumble Bee. I miss him" I was like "Owh i have to really see who is this guy. Hmmm....i stopped my mission after a few attempt of seeing his face cause later i found out he is straight. Haih.... I don't think i can take it now. Miss them first and second love. Hope that they are doing fine now. :)