Sunday, June 30, 2013

What Do You Think?

What do you think when a guy came three times before your first cum? Intrigue? Turned off? 


Too bad!!! I have unfortunate natural curls. Then I recall the tragic look, when my hair went greasy. I looks like a pimp from the 80's, and it has to be the one from a brothel. A brothel from Hong Kong that located beside the immigrant dock. So I intend to get this style instead( the pic above). What do you think? Hope my head shape suits this style though.  Would go shorter if I could. My hair at the sides tend to erect as it grow. So I would need hair cuts like every two weeks. That would make me go nuts if I do. 

Friday, June 28, 2013


I realize that when I have part of my face covered with hair, I look better. Maybe I should consider this hair. Leave it long enough to cover half of my face.  What do you guys think? You think this hair is outdated???  

Thursday, June 27, 2013

The Dream

Haha.... about the dream that woke me up and made me J.O in a trance the other night. It wasn't a story but it's a compilation of intense moments. It's like GIF's of the best sex moments that i have seen and experienced. It was like fast foward GIF's Flip Boards flipping through and it got me breathing fire!! lolz.... 
That's not entirely it.  I likes to sleep nude. I love to cover myself with my comforter. It's heavy and it feels like someone is hugging me every time when i am under it. So when i got the dream. I got hard. My skin pulls back a little when ever i am hard, revealing just a little of my head. So when down south is pointing upwards? The little exposed area were rubbing against my comforter. With my pre cum? The frictions were amplified and unbearable. So the crime took place. So there you have the force of two elements. Dream and Reality. I am defenseless!!
Ps: I do  feel like i am watching some kids tutorial stuff though. Some Learning pack with interactions!!

Wednesday, June 26, 2013


I woke up in the middle of last night by a dream and masturbate furiously. Then I went back to sleep. Like a trance. So crazy. Owh... Someone please play with me!!! 

Tuesday, June 25, 2013

Friends?? No??

I was reading this blog TGYM. It got me thinking. Well wonder actually. If two friends have sex. They are not friends anymore? Really?  All these while I never thought that it was a problem.

Sorry, previously type wrongly. LOLZzzzzz.....

Monday, June 24, 2013

Lonely too long???

I really don't like how i was being treated recently. That makes me think that have I gone nuts and got grumpier. I tend to get angry at everything that involves human. Have I been alone too long? Like an old man.  I really don't like this feeling. Getting nude when I go to bed at night is my only comfort now these.  I need interactions. Don't patronize me. I do know that you don't know that you are doing it. Maybe because I am not as useful as before. Maybe because I am not the contributor as I once were before. I do feel small. I do get it that I am retarded now. If I could, I would make your damn life easier. With everyone around is a massive wrong move. I hate that. I hate that I am hating it. I hate that I am repelling everything right now. I bloody hate feeling small. 

Sunday, June 23, 2013


Gets me drooling!!!  Those skinny legs are awesome. Please god please send me a guy that looks like that? 

Saturday, June 22, 2013

Yesterday's Question

In response of yesterday's question. I have decided that whenever a stranger ask me for money, I would ask for sex in return. I think that asking a stranger for money is equally as intense as asking a stranger for sex. My intention is to provoke them with a question that hits equally as hard. So that, they would realize that it is not okay to ask such question. I get this all the time. Young, old, sane and insane. Chat at first and then followed by the "money" request. Most  of the time it's for ciggy or beers. I have tested this once though. I say I would give the money but you have to show me your hard cock. Awkward moment there, then silence and laughs!!! LOLZzzzzz, of course it's only my first trial, so I don't dare to realize it. So I change the subject. You think it works?

Friday, June 21, 2013


If you were to ask a stranger, which is more difficult for you?        MONEY or SEX?

Thursday, June 20, 2013


Do zap me with electricity. Not doing anything lately. Everything is a distraction. I am bound to babysit everyday and yet the question of "Why am i not doing anything" sill comes up. Duhh!! it's because you bloody ask me to babysit!! That's why!! You all single handedly deconstructed my almost perfect life. I am not blaming. Just don't find fault with me when you are utilizing me. Consuming my time means extra free time for yourself. Tell me !! What have you done to improve the situation?

Wednesday, June 19, 2013

Passing The Days

Remember the Security guard that i mentioned about? the sexy security guard that lets me suck? He is leaving Malaysia in November. Relocating at Germany. Hmm... and i thought that i finally found a sex partner Well sort of, cause he is straight. Though it's all i can suck but it's gonna end soon. I don't like these feeling of "it's gonna end soon". I bloody hope that i am not going to be emotionally attach to him in any ways!!  He was acting weird yesterday though. He kept on stares at me when i am not looking. He says that he wants to know more girls and hope that i could introduce some of my girl friends. Ishh... Such a retarded evening!!
I felt that whatever that i've done recently, is all purely just to sabotage myself. This is crazy. I am not being productive at all. I felt so heavy. Being sleepless isn't helping at all. It's such a nuisance really. What's worst, i felt like eating big chunks of meat all the time. It's not the taste that i am craving for but it's the feeling of my teeth sinking into the chunks of boneless meat that i am craving for. Lolzz.... nuts!!

Monday, June 17, 2013


I really like this. It's sweet. Very sweet!!
(Tension Sexual 03 El Otro (The Other One) TLA release)
Super love the ending. I know such relationship does exist. It's amazing right??  Once there is this guy that i just knew.  Came drinking with me cause he quarreled with his girlfriend. Good night and lots of chat.  I asked him about his best friend. He told me that they grew up together and went through many fire and storms together. He made a confession. He said that he kissed his best friend before. So (to me) that was normal, but it's the way that he said it... he stares into thin air and speaks in slow motion  " I kissed him before... and i really love him" the way he delivered it made me almost believed that they have some scandals going on but nope. It's just pure straight bff love. Is it called bromance?? Is there a word for it ?? (that doesn't mean gay)

And this one is simple but tempting!! Reminds me a lot about the public transport years.
(Tension Sexual 02 El Primo (The Cousin) TLA release)

Sunday, June 16, 2013

So Bored!!!

Was watching CNN yesterday. Featured Brazil. I was a bit upset cause they scrutinize on the progress of Brazil towards the big games that they are hosting. Well, just thought that even if it's not up to par, we should salute on the effort invested. To be fair they did feature some compliments to them as well, but i think it's just complimentary. 
Been reading my FB quite much lately. Usually i just scroll through but  due to boredom i started reading some. There is a gorgeous looking caucasian who is madly in love with this chubby asian guy. I think he is malaysian. Looking at the way their Fb goes i think the asian is not that excited about the relationship. The caucasian instead were madly in love. Then recently, zero post from both of them. I hope nothing bad happen to them. 
Then there is this other person who always gets lots of comments from people. I didn't realize it at first, but the more i see the more i feel that this guy has nothing to do but to show off. Every post is genuinely showing off. It's annoying. Sometimes i wonder does he even notice it or not. 
Anyway... it has been boring recently. Then i can't seem to sleep at night. Been digging the fridge for food when i can't sleep. I love my bed. I really love it. I dream about it when i am out. I would miss my bed when i am out. But when i am sleeping on it? I can't sleep. :(

Friday, June 14, 2013

I wish i never see him again.

I  de-friended a friend a while ago. Well actually i did it months back and eventually get back to be friends again after a while. This time it's for real. I don't think i could take his shit anymore. This time.. i made it quite clear by asking him to delete his FB of my list. When you felt like tons are lifted off your shoulder and you had zero remorse?? That's when you know you've made the right decision. 

Thursday, June 13, 2013


So fake. So fake. This person chatting beside me is so fake. If only I could punch him. I don't know he is really excited about his meeting or he is just a happy guy but he is obviously over excited. Iisshhhh!!!! 
Met an Iranian guy the other day. He always hang out at the park too. Always saw him there so just say hello when ever cross path. Then I will go sit at my bench. The other day he wanted to chat. He called me to sit beside him when I walked passed him. So I did. It was like chicken and duck talk. So difficult to get my words across. Then suddenly he received a call. He talked for so long. Then I told him that I wanna go. He hold my hand and ask me to wait. So I waited, but his conversations never ends. Then I woke up. Again he asked me to wait. After a while, he ended his conversation and continue to chat with me again. This time all of a sudden his English is super fluent. He asked. " are you gay?" I said yes. Then he asked me again " you don't like girls?" I said no. Then another question, " can you suck me?" I answered no. Cause he is kinda rude in some ways. Right after I said no. His face changed and with a shuhh gesture he said " you can go" and looked away Then he said.... So many cute guys are interested at his cock. I laugh and said " I am not" and walked away. These pest. Can't even understand the common language but when it comes to sex they suddenly could understand English so well.  I am so glad that I could reject this egoistic male chauvinist. 

Monday, June 10, 2013


My mom just used four different ways to complaint about one matter at one go. Jaw dropping!!! Some more she says she doesn't nag! Huh????

Water | Vattnet (2012) - gay short film

Ha Ha HA HA HA... James is just so fucking sexy. He is like an A class NERD. His awkward dorky movements. Did you see how he tucks in his shirt?? His pants is just cute. Well i know it's just an act, but this is like my dream guy. Hmm....

Friday, June 7, 2013


Guys with caps are getting my attention these days. Is it making a comeback? Suddenly they just look so attractive these days.

Wednesday, June 5, 2013

How. Are you?

How is everyone lately? I hope that everyone is doing fine. I know problems are inevitable, but I hope that in the mids of avoiding and eliminating it? At the end of the day, everyone is fine and are at peace. Don't hurt anyone along the way though. There is nothing victorious about that. 

Tuesday, June 4, 2013

I can't Sleep

I walk and i walk and i walk and i walk. Is it my eyes or there are really not a soul that are awake at that time?? 

Sunday, June 2, 2013


Approximately one feet away from the cashier asking for a pack of ciggy when a guy slipped in front of me to purchase what he wants to purchase. Got shocked by his rude move but couldn't get angry cause he IS SO CUTE!!!! LOLZzzzzz...... He is damm sexy. Happens to be a security guard of the building opposite. I couldn't take my eyes off him. Two days after that... I went scouting at where he works. Hoping to make friends. Saw him and smiled at him. Totall ignorance from him. Was thanking god after that, cause it started raining. Meaning longer time there and it's by force. Ha ha HA HA HA......... Ice cold shoulder from him. Even when he walked pass, I hawk eyed him hoping that he would acknowledge my presence. Not a single flick from his eyes at all.  When he was walking pass me again to get back to his chair. I said hello. He just replied "Hi" and walked away. Even worst.... He disappeared!!! I feel like a low life wolf!!! Getting his message, I stop my operation and went home when the rain stops. Three days after at 3am. I was getting some drinks and smoke in front of the store. Saw this guy at the building opposite. Just shadow cause of my limited vision. So I don't know if it was him or not. When I light my second ciggy, this shadow guy walked to the store. So it was him. Since we have talk before, I smiled at him when he saw me. Bloody no response from him at all!!! When he comes out, I did the same again when I saw him looking at me. Damm it!!! Again the same cold shoulder. Frustrated I walked straight to where he was sitting and actually waved my hands in front of his face and say hi. Then he just smiled and responded. Grrrr....... So I proceed to chat. Actually on purpose. To agitate him. Ha ha ha....... He turns out to be quite chatty. Half an hour into the conversations I thought of going back when I spotted a boner. My eyes were locked on it. When I looked up, he was looking at me, but he looked away immediately though. Ha ha ha...... So I instantly break my knuckles, waved my arm, rubbed my ear ring and transform into my slut mode. There is a desk in front of him with magazines. I squat down and placed my hand on his lap and asked him about the magazines. There is one magazine at the further end of the table. So that is my beacon of hope. I tried to reach it. And accidentally on purpose I moved my hand further up north. Hence precisely parked my palm on his boner. HE DIDN'T MOVE A NOTCH!!!! Squeeze it a little, I asked him wanna go smoke or not. He agreed. ha ha HA HA HA..... amazingly, for someone  who posses a frosted shoulder actually French and hugs me after that. Tsk, tsk, tsk, .... Men are just such a mysterious creature.