Some Opinions?

Hey guys i just made this note book. Did it from scratch. I sew the pages myself. then the cover and the accessories. Two days period. If you see it, i mean it's obviously for girls but would you even want to pay for it?  What you think? Would appreciate  some opinion..Thanks a million. 

It makes me wanna be in the fast lane.

I have to start doing SOMETHING!!!!!

Evolution

I found a guy who wants to be romanced by a man "just" because he wants to feels how a woman feels like while sex, but he is straight.  "Ting!!" "Ting!!"   Yeah...putting himself in the state of possibly how his woman feels like while romancing him,  turns him on. Really such a revolution. Why do i kept smiling yeah? Wink*

Suddenly I really want to learn French..it's just so sexy.

Ps: I may sound quite excited about it (don't know why?) But i am really not. I actually kinda fels quite blank cause i really don't know how to place this "new" ..."matter"

It's so quiet

It's so quiet now. Wow..it is really quiet. Anyway i talked to a guy in the park the other day. Was smoking there at night. Kinda always loved to sit there alone and have a smoke. I went there after meeting my friend. Was quite frustrated cause he is really an ass hole. I despise guys who never wants to level down a little percentage of ego to apologize. I have zero respect for guys like that. Then a guy who i thought was a beggar who is lying down two bench away said excuse me. Then ask for a cigarette. So i pass it to him and he sat down beside me. His feet smells like my dog's three weeks wee pad.  I said nothing to be polite but he apologizes and explain that he was walking in his shoes the whole day and he just changed it to his sandals. Then he says he is going back tomorrow but didn't want to spend on Hotels. So he can't wash. Hmm...i smiled and said it's not bothering me.
We then continue to chat for like hours. It's like talking to a wise men. His words calms me down. Something he said that's enlightening.... ... Eliminate anger and problem thoughts in seconds. Always think of solutions instead of dwelling on the problems.  

Approach

Was reading the blog that little Tuls was introducing. The first post touches a little on approaching guys. Well...it reminded me on my very first approach. I basically only ever approach once. Well not included the ones when i am drunk. Those cannot be included cause i am a seductive slut when i am drunk. Che Wahh!! Lol.... hmm... no really.i am like another person when i am  wasted. That slut will never appear again , cause i have stop drinking due to my eyes condition.
Anyway about the one and only approach..took me a month to gain the courage to do it. My plan was to give him a gift and leave my number in the bag. So i did practice what i would say to him. I was gonna introduce myself and then tell him that my number is in the bag, hope to receive his text. (that way i alleviate the awkward moment of asking his number)
So on the big day...as usual i pray to see him appear at the LRT. Kinda waited when he arrives then only i get into the LRT. My Que was to approach him when he goes out at his stop. So when he walks out i went out too. Pat his shoulder and shove him the gift in a bag. Was too nervous...suppose to say "Hi" first but i didn't and i shove the bag instead of smile and slow motion passing him the bag..with some little soft chill breeze. Failed!!1but i did get to convey whatever i wanted to convey. Just not that elegant as planned. Hahah...Owh guess what gift that i bought for him??? It's two cup noodles. Kakaaakakaka... but i really meant to give him that ...cause somehow i feels that he is lonely and living alone far away from pals and family. So a warm cup of noodles would actually warms everything up. 

I went quiet

Hah!! hmm.. it's hot and superbly hot. I went out to my garden to drink a cup of coffee. Then can't bare looking at the plants that looks rather dry. So i start watering them. Half an hour out in my garden and my T's color gone darker from my shoulder till the middle of my shorts. It's soaking wet with my sweat..it's like i water myself when i did to the plants. Lolz..... Then my sis came with a news. She is pregnant. I went quiet. simply because she has been warned before this. She shouldn't be pregnant cause we haven't gone through any ceremony on our side yet. One ceremony has been done on her husbands side (a Muslim) and they can't wait to hump and now asking us questions like "is the ceremony more important than the mother and the baby? Well the question is not about them but u have been warned not to do it but u just can't wait to reproduce. How selfish. 

After all these

After all these... i guess what i wanted most is that i wish i could do it again. I wish i would be able to do it all over again.. Not to Bumble Bee  of course. The next person i am gonna love. The next soul or whoever i am gonna be with. Sometimes i do think that i am weird, because i actually wish that i could serve someone again.lolz...and all i ever wanted back in return is someone to hold me at night. A strong hug at night while i am sleeping. Just so that i could feel safe. Someone who would hugs me so tight so that i would never ever felt that i am falling. So tight that i could feel that my feet is actually connected to the ground. So tight that i would realize that i actually existed.  I am so crazy that one night i find my self wondering that is there such thing as "Comfort for rent?"