I offered to pay for my friend's drink. So i say "wait!!...together" I pointed to my friend while looking at him. His response ... "Owh...together huh?" WITH a smirk. So my friend defended that i am not his type and all... (We are quite a regular there..i mean there is a mamak outside 7E, everyone there thinks that my friend and i are together) (Somehow to the mamaks it's weird to see me appearing without him) Anyway I kept quiet cause i never "officially" told him i was gay before. Yeah i know you guys must be thinking that...it must be obvious by now. Thing is errr.....you know how sometimes straight guys react dramatically before and after you officially admit it. So i kept quiet. Went for a smoke before going home. That scene repeatedly appearing in my mind. Was wondering that should i have said something? Went home (still thinking) and i couldn't sleep!!! I got up after flapping for two hours on my bed and decided to pay him a visit. Hoping that i could slip in some explanation while chatting
So at 3 something a.m i walk to 7E. So as usual if i didn't prepare then i will bring "anything" i could find at home to give him. I only found a box of mark & spenser blueberry puffs. Hesitated abit cause it's my favorite. ahahahah..... ok ok, took it anyway. Greeted him... he was walking front from the back. Left it on the cashier and head to the back to get a drink. When i came back to the cashier it was already hidden, cause someone came in. He He He he.. So cute..
Then the person paid and gone. We chat, .then i try to slip in the matter that was bothering me..." "Hey... (forehead felt cold) my friend and i are not together" ahhahaah...trying to make it sound like a joke. (start to feel ridiculous for mentioning it) (suddenly mind went blank...eyes widened suffocating to find something to say immediately so that the situation is not awkward) still ha ha-ing (have to say something now! searching... fast!! fast!! fast!!) ..........in a split second.......... .i spurted "I'm yours...don't worry"!!!! Ka ching!!! eyes widened!! Why do i say that??? Ting!! Ting!! Ting!!! zuuppp I could feel my hair behind my neck stood up I don't even dare to look at his face....... then we both started laughing.....I Mr.Super Red Face...then turns to the back pretends to take a straw and say bye. Then zoom..off!! My hands were shaking when i walk away.OMG...DON'T WORRY??? and I'M YOURS???? I can understand I'm Yours but DON'T WORRY?? where did that came from?? Why did i even say that??? Really ...this is really OMG!!!