Straight

What are the odds. The least expected person cares for me more than I thought. A straight guy worried bout me. Never thought so. Once again proven. Even if he is ugly. When you have the right quality. You're attractive.

Another Night

Another night I spend alone. Maybe some people has a rough last life. That s why this life they can boast. Or parade their affection. What have I done wrong,? I have no idea of my last life. Torturing me this life is not fair to me.

DORKY

I met the ugliest guy ever. But somehow his dorkyness and his straightnedd wins all. I somehow find him sexy.his willingness to be the one who service more than the one who is being serviced. Makes all the sexier. He was hott.

An update?

There is this cute boy says I'm drama on my messenger. Hmmm.... I guess I might be. But when you're alone and suddenly everyone doesn't tsp on you. You freak out. Even when I go hunt in toilet. There are none that are interested. I freaked out. What just happened? I was offering a free bj. No one takes,? I must have been really ugly. Ha he ha .... now these with money you can get even athletes to satisfy you. But even that I have budget restrain. OMG. How much lower I must go? Oh look I took a picture of this guy beside me. Hmm can't attach the pic. It was him underwearless with a vpl. Anyway.... where's is my fate? My jodoh? All hiding. So hidden that the hobbit can't find it. Still I have to move on. Be happy. Live life.

SAd

It's just dissapointed drry sad when you tap twenty orf 5he grindr profile and no one tap you back. Am I so scary. Am I so ugly?

LITTLE

Here I am again. Drinking alone. Using forbidden money. Always make myself drunk hoping someone may consider to rape me. Or the other way round. Apart from the beautiful Grindr pictures.  Hard to get grindr owners. I realise there are more beautiful guys when you see them live. I mean not realise but I've always get attracted to guys who has a certain swag. I mean when you see the real person. The swag of that person may be attractive even though they are ugly. Beautiful still picture from Grindr instead always turns out ugly. Not looks maybe but attitude and stuff. Recently I realise many ugly guys are attractive actually. When you see the way they dress. They move. They talk. All these matters. That s why I'm so pasrah at Grindr. It's impossible to chat real conversations.  I really need a good chat. A simple drinking smoking chat session.

So Far

How could it be that when you met a guy that is 90% of your dream guy, and you're worth 0% to him? Maybe you should get to know each other more. Maybe you have to woo him more.
The incredible evil truth  of a one night stand. Within 4 hours you have to impress intellectually, sexually, lifestyle and many more.
It's so heartaching that you see the future you want and you can't get hold of it. Suddenly you must tug in your muffin tops. Hide your blackheads. Wear your best tops. Nicest underwear. Wear your nicest watch. Diamond ear rings. Brush your teeth. Slick hair. Shaved. Re-organise your home interior. Fresh bedsheets. Freshen the air. Clean the bathroom n the room. Change the channel to HBO. After all that, you must talk smoothly. Don't smoke if he doesn't. Don't drink if he doesn't. Kiss him first. With an impressive kissing skill. Suck seductively. Try to make your small dick look bigger. Moan appropriately. Make sure he cums explosively.

Then after all that... the after sex moment. You try to make him stay. Or try to create a next opportunity. But at the same time see your dream guy preparing to leave. Wondering will there be a next time.

Well in my case it doesn't seem like it's gonna happen again. It's the most painful feeling seeing him leave. Yeah it's just a first meet but I'm terribly smitten. He is all I ever wanted.