Monday, April 16, 2012

A Friend


I begin my secondary years in a strangers land. Port Dickson. I shall say that is my ever favorite times of my schooling years. It lasted only 8 months though. Then i started my second half of my Form 1  in a strangers land. Triang, Pahang. A mandarin speaking land that when you speak English...you became an instant super star.  I have problem communicating as i don't really speak mandarin. Of course it's different now. I guess..   .Never been there for 13 years at least. In everybody's life there must be one hero at least. In mine there's two. :) One is really my hero and the other is the one i admire.

As i recall....This hero of mine is the first guy that i have spoken to om my first day at school. Then we didn't became best friend but friend. At that time..everyone in my class is one year older than me. So in a way he became protective. Not romance but it's like this.......... He is like the head of the bad boys in school. So no best friend pat on the back.or hugs and so on but instead its the mess hair brushing on the head and he will always appear in front of me whenever i got bullied at school. You know i only realize that i am gay when i am in Form 4. So i have no clue at all about bromance At that time all i know, i have great respect for him and am grateful to him even  though he always mix with the junkies. I remember that i like to smile at his girlfriend. Though she is from the back junkie class but she has very cool attitudes. Well it's always the bravest would be with the bravest. She never hesitates to fight if the situation demands. She is also very pretty. Very modelesque.

Form 2 started and i was one of the prefect in school. This time i don't know, how come he is the one who got to sits beside me in class.. :)  Between him and i.  I am better with home works and studies. So i always unconsciously guides him to study. Imagine teaching a triad head? well sort off.. ahahah... When ever i was assigned to watch over areas like behind the toilets or at any quiet areas..i would always get disturbed by this other hyenas. Fact...apparently all these hyenas hates school prefects and they calls prefect the school dogs. Well i think it should be diamond dogs. ahahaha. Well anyway whenever such things happen my hero will always turn up. He would stand in front of me and dares those junkie to fight and then hush them away. Then after a few months into Form 2, my Hero passed away due to a bike accident.

As i recall it's a weekend. I remembered crying but i can't remember how much i cried. I remembered hating my mom for not allowing me to attend his funeral. I can't remember much of that day in detail though.  He must have been quite an impact in my life that i have to tell myself to wipe off this part of my memory of him in my life. I have not much memory on that day  at all. After that incident my studies drop from good to bad through out my secondary years.

But then this i can remember very clearly. A few weeks after that... during recess i was assigned to watch this area at the back of the school and these hyenas who always failed to bully me  actually came back. It was quite a bad feeling at that time. I am quite scared and at the same time sad. All i can do is just act ignorant to their threats. Well when you are not reacting it makes the hyena's anger grew... so they begin to speak louder and one of them begin to catch both of my arm and shake my body. So i was trying to push him off but as i am about to react  i  heard a girls voice. It was my hero's girlfriend. I know it sounds kinda funny in a way but she actually helped me out. Continuing what her boyfriend used to do. I remember that was the day i regained my smile. After that even his brothers continue looking out for me.


13 comments:

  1. good to have frens like that.. n RIP to ur fren :)

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    1. Yeah..even though it's for a while. Weep Weep... :)

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  2. I was totally unprepared for the change in mood.. May he rest in peace.. =/

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    1. Hahah... ime too in a way cause i was thinking of another friend when it suddenly linked to him.

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  3. It's absolutely wonderful that you dedicated an entire blog entry to this great friend of yours. May his soul rest in peace. I guess God loves him more that He wants to meet him and guide him to a proper path.

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    1. Thanks... Maybe god made him one of my guardian angel. hahah...owh..then when i XXX??? he saw?? :O

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    2. God doesn't discriminate and I'm sure angels too. Who knows, he might be your guardian angel after all! :)

      What's with the XXX? ;)

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  4. You know what, looking back now...I am glad that those "hyenas" got what they deserved.

    In my case, I got more fabulous and thanks to them I am way much stronger now.

    Way much successful in life.

    All I can do, is to look back and smile at them.

    And as for your dearest friend/hero, may his soul rest in peace. And I am sure he was glad to have had a friend like you.

    :)

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    1. I wish that i had been a functional friend to him... and also i am quite glad too that his sis married to one of my best friend. :)

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  5. what a sad but inspiring story.
    I am so sorry for the lost of ur best buddy back then, the pain of losing someone so dear must be immense.

    = ) sometimes when we lose somebody we just need to look forward, hoping that wherever they are now, they are better, and we live our lives, saying, yeah we have to do better, because we live on, and that is being lucky.

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  6. Am touched but I cant find the word to describe. Thanks to friends like these, that make our secondary school, a little more bearable =)

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