Thursday, December 19, 2013

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Everyday my mom will call my dad. My dad never fails to pick up the phone right after the first ring. The other day he didn't. My mom panicked. Called  neighbour #1, on vacation. Neighbor #2, at hometown. Neighbor #3, went out. Neighbor #4 didn't pick up the phone. Finally, Neighbor #5 responded. 
The guy went to my home. He could see my dad from the gate. The whole house was dark, only the tele is on. My dad is lying down in front of the tele. He shouted for my dad several times but my dad did not answer him. Through the phone, my mom screamed asking him to break the gate and doors. Do whatever to get to my dad. More people came to help my neighbor. When they finally get in and turn on the lights. My dad's hands and legs has already begun to turn dark. There is no sign of struggle on his face or anything though. It looks like my dad left while sleeping. He left peacefully. The doctors says that through what the eyes could see, my dad is healthy. There is a little blockage in his heart but it's not fatal. So for now, my dad has no cause of death. The blood test result would only be available after 3 months. 
I'm writing this not to obtain sympathy, but if you do sympathize me? Please do convert that into love and touch your important ones. Life is fickle. Regret weighs a million times heavier at times like that. Ironically, so is comfort. The simple set of McD's that you want them to try. The bottle of vitamins that you think they should have. The place that you wanted them to visit. The movie that you wanted to watch together. That call that you've been wanting to make. Do it. Express your affections. There is no shame in love. Deliver it in the weirdest way. Even if it's awkward. It's worth it. 
My dad is never a lovey dovey person. It felt like we were stranger when we were together. A few years back, my dad started to hug us and he would tells us that he loves us. He broke the ice. He initiated it. Never in my life I would thought that I would hug my father and actually tells him "I love you" right to his face. Now, I'm so glad that I've ever hugged my dad. I'm glad that I've told him that I love him. I'm glad that he went off peacefully. 
I hope that it's not too late to write this. With Christmas and CNY in the corner. Be near you family. Be around your loved ones. Love generously and never ever forget to love yourself too. 

16 comments:

  1. Really sorry for your lost. My deepest condolences..

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    1. Thank you E. You still around in Malaysia?

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  2. Sorry to hear this.... And great post.. I've actually been compiling a mental list of things to buy home recently...And i guess it's time to really do it :) Take care

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    1. Thanks :). I am glad that my pst could do some good. Thanks again.

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  3. My deepest condolences to you and family. Be strong. (:

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    1. Thank Yu V. :) Am staying strong here. Have to be strong for my mom. Thanks again.

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  4. My deepest condolences to you. Live happily for him :)

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    1. Thanks you SY. Yeah you are right. We gotta live happily and healthily too. You too.

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  5. sorry to hear this. ur post made me call back home >__<

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    1. Thank You B. I am glad that my post had some influence. I appreciate that. I really hope everyone really do love more after reading this post.

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  6. I teared a little reading this.. Life is fragile.. Often need reminding of that..
    Stay strong, lots of love.

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    1. Thank You L. Yeah... ironically, it's something that is damm important but needs constant reminder. You take care too. Hugs.

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  7. I'm sorry for your loss. My deepest condolences to you and your family. I couldn't agree more on what you say about love and I applaud for your message to everyone who is reading this to show our affections to the ones we love. Do not wait till it's too late for time doesn't wait for us. Life is unpredictable. No one could predict what would happen tomorrow. We often take those we love for granted thinking they're always here but we have forgotten that life is fragile. Stay strong and may you and your family be blessed.

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    1. HeyCJ. Thank you. Will stay strong. Thanks again.

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  8. Deepest condolence to your family. Glad to come across your blog, such a nice one

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