Friday, October 30, 2009


After two days of chickening out. I finally dare myself to approach Eric. Out of no where i thought of buying instant noodle for him. Those japanese ones in a cup where you just pour hot water to cook it. In the end during my ride home i talk to him. Everything was like in a daze. It happened very fast and i don't even know did i speak clearly. It's like a sudden giant vacuum sucked the time and all you could feel is like youre in a wave. I passed him the noodles and my number hoping he'll call or text me. I would prefer text cause i wouldn't know what to talk about. It went well and he actually text me saying his thanks and appreciation for the noodles. I thought giving him noodles would be a joke to everyone, but amazingly he seem to appreciate the noodles a lot. well thank god it turn out good.

Friday, October 16, 2009


I saw him again. Let's call him Eric.The guy i ga ga over from the train (LRT). It's just ironic. I've been wanting to show him to my friends but when ever my friends are around he won't show up. After some time that i didn't see Eric, Today i get to see him. I've been trying to smile to him so that i could establish so sort of conversation but he just won't look me in the eye.!!!.... I know Eric know my existance. You know that feeling where you know that he's trying to check you out but not wanting you to know he is looking? That wierd sweet chemistry?? That wierd but sweet feeling. Eric always stands behind me when ever we're queing up for the train. I never get to know untill we enter the train and turn around and WALLA...... damm....he's behind me. but when i realised that his back would be facing me already cause the entrance is at the other side. IT"S ALWAYS LIKE THAT.!!!  Damm... i really need all the guts and luck to start talking to him. This feels like a fly flying around and buzzing too long around me.  Thank god today when i dare myself to look at him and he did look me in the eye like a fraction of a second. I'll take that as a great progress...

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Just one of those days

Every year, there's a time (for sure) i'll feel like that. Very blue. Very low. Aday or period of time where i feel really bad.I would have flashbacks of my whole life. Rewind, reminding me that i've been no where. These are the days that i feel like crying 24/7. This is just mean. I'll drop to ZERO and i have to pick myself up and held myself  high enough hoping next year i won't fall so hard. Well, "this too shall pass" time will heal things. Time will also hurt again. I have to believe that nothing is T.M.T.H (Too Much To Handle).

Monday, October 5, 2009


Ambitious is good. What do you think of  "Crap Frame" hahha...... Well i thought of naming my new frame that. hope it's something that i could actually have some actuall success. But it takes me hours to just finish one. Does it really worth it? Hmmm..... Well.... if you had a guy asking you what is your type? and then later asking "are you talking about me? What does he actually meant by that??? Well, this guy is a great guy. He is almost everything i wanted. but everyone needs to know each other to love each other. I'm trying to get to know him. Having signs of him texting me not "just" replying me. but there seem to have something that wierd bout him. He seems to stop a conversation ("texting" i mean) just like that. is that normal? i'm begining to think he fainted or something. I also caught him lying. Once. not that it really matters but should this to be taken into account?? Well, hope what ever i'm doing will flourish... really pray hard!!! He wears braces. Thats sexy!!! He He....