Wednesday, June 6, 2012

It's it's something i guess........? Five

Have you ever felt this feeling of betrayal? Something fishy. It's like you have this sixth sense telling you that your boyfriend is cheating on you or someone is betraying you?  It's really an ugly feeling. I had it twice before and twice also turns out to be true. Once was my best friend starts to date the guy who i likes. Another one are when Bumble Bee is going out with another guy. What i felt or suspicious about usually hits on the spot quite precisely. This time i really don't know why i am having this feeling. It's quite ridiculous actually cause this time i am suspecting that my friend who always follows me to 7Eleven one is dating Straight Boy. I am really amazed with the appearance of this suspicions but my friend has not call me for two weeks already. My friend too did actually show interest in Straight Boy too. OMG...this better not be true cause i tremendously hate this feeling. it's robust and ugly. It's really ugly ugly. 

Actually i am super terrified. I am afraid that what happens in the past may repeat. I don't want to know if it happens. I know i sounds plain STUPID and unnecessary but that particular fear registered in me, i can't help it. 

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  1. if ur friend really did that, he is so not sensible eventhough he knew that u have feeling over him. Hope for this one time, u actually got it wrong..sigh

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    1. Thank you Soul. :) That was nice. I do hope so too.

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  2. There's this saying that 'trust your instinct'.

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    1. Hrrmmm.......mmm.... i always do and that's explains my worries.

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    2. Anyway can i Blek* you? Blek** Blek** :P

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    3. Hahahaha... why suddenly wanna act cute is it? Blek lah as much as you want. Hahahaha!

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  3. I have a silly question. Since you have befriended Straight Boy, didn't you ask him whether he is seeing someone in Malaysia or back where he's from (before this). Perhaps not too late to casually bring this up and see what's his reply

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    1. He told me he is single. But that was like last year. Maybe i should ask again?

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    2. Oh... Yes please. Lots of things can happen in a day. Apatah lagi in a year. Let's see what he says. Mean while, while you are at this topic, also ask him what is he looking for in a relationship. There's a Chinese saying - knowing yourself and knowing your opponent will lead to winning (in a battle) 知己知彼百战百胜 (:

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    3. Oh wow..i will definitely do that.Hope he is working night shit today. Didn't go that area since Monday already. Takut i would see stuff that i don't desire. Hahah... Hmm... i think i'll go check out tonight.

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    4. If it happens, it happens. Avoiding it doesn't mean that it's not happening. Of course I/we hope that your instinct is wrong this time.

      Right or wrong, life goes on. (:

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    5. It sounds really scary when what someone says are true. Yeah... right or wrong..life never stops. Thanks man.

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  4. your is and are semua terbalik!! lol...

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    1. read your entry again... line 5, line 9... :))

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  5. Lol.. The second i confirmed my suspicion that the guy i really liked went official with my best friend that knew i liked him.. Flood gates opened and all hell emotions broke loose.. lol.. Anyways, cross your heart and hope for the best. :)

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    1. I am trying and praying >_< very very hard. :)

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    2. Oh shit!! i really don't like the feeling. OMG it's nasty.

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  6. yikes! hope that's not true. *hugs*

    @Tuls, grammar nazi is frowned upon!

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    1. @two horns - agree with jason, hope that its not true =)
      but... even if it is, remember, you deserves better...
      *hugs*

      @Jason - Tuls itu macam movie critic/blog critic... haha

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    2. *flips hair* say what?

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    3. Haiks.!!! Joker...aww..that was very sweet of you.. feeling your hug here..!!! :)

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  7. You're very farnee. Love your writing.

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    1. Thank You, and thanks for reading. :)

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    2. The pleasure is all mine. ;) K.

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    3. Will take some time to read everything you got here though. ;p Each positing honeycombed the heart n mind. ;) K.

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    4. It's such an honor. Thanks once again and hope you don't fall asleep reading ... :)

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  8. A gay man deserves genuine love from another gay man (minus the players ya). Love from a straight man is too complicated. Your hair would all turn grey whilst trying to figure out if the straight man love you or not. Love comes naturally and it's not something which can be developed. ;p

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    1. Yeah...i know what you mean. It's kinda pointless right? Couldn't agree more. Thank you very much.

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    2. Keep Straight Boy as a fren, or perhaps not, to escape from the agony (you know what I mean rite?). ;p You deserve mutual love. Then you can always smile n be happy. ;) Btw how's your eyes now? Cut down smoking yet? K.

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    3. Yeah..i know what you mean. Agony is painful. My eyes are okay. Stable for now. How you know about it anyway? About smoking... i am trying my best. Thanks ;)

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    4. I am done reading all your postings, way back to 2009. ;p I must say you're quite an interesting person. Those ups n downs are just part n parcel of life. You become a better n stronger person. Must take good care of your eyes. No such thing as "love is blind" ya. ;) K.

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    5. Hey...that's very nice of you to do that. :) Even from 2009? Thanks for reading man. Hahaha... owh those old post must be funny. i think i am touched.

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    6. Do email me. I would want to know your name at least. :) Thanks.

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    7. It seems like I've known you for 3 years already then. ;) Btw that's my email contact in the below message. ;p

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  9. Every posting is worth reading. I didn't dozed off at all. ;p Write to me, kf71@hotmail.com

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  10. Just keep those fingers cross. I'm sure its not what you imagine. You'll find true love soon :D

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    1. Thanks man...and true love is what i'll be waiting then.

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  11. oh i know that feeling!!!!
    and it just keeps bugging u.

    better find it out. safe than sorry, they say!

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    1. Yeah yeah..it's not just there but it's there and it slowly creeps in you. Hahhaha....True, never regrets right?

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