Saturday, September 8, 2012

Broken?

I think i just broke up with my best friend (Rafflesia) Again at times like this he says that i am not being appreciative for crying and doing all those stuff that i did for Samir. He says that i should have been contented that i have ever met Samir at all. That is like telling me that i should be appreciative that i got the job but i don't need to work the job??  Then i told him that i do appreciate of what i've got and me being sad is just because of the sudden void of Samir in my life. I am somehow entitled to be sad right? Come on...... i am making progress here and he has to bring up the subject to evaluate??  It's bad enough that he made me go through it again. Worst he casually brings it up just for the sake of a conversation and doesn't want to stop just because he wants to win the conversation. When does my pain comes in? It's just like when this happens he is at home town for a week and not even a text of concern but meeting me up one week later telling me he wants to meet up because he is worried!!  Owh! I just woke up and walked away. 

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  1. Best friends - I guess he will come around. It is just a phase. No one would truly understand oneself. There isn't a right or wrong about this. Maybe take it as there is one that would speak honestly without going having any to reserve. He will understand one day that you are in pain too. And even you are in pain, the people that feel your pain are your best friends.

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    1. I am not denying what he says is right. I understand and i am doing it too but what i despise is that he deliberately ignore my feelings because he wants to win the conversations.

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  2. But it's your bestie.

    Disagreements bound to happen, give it a moment to cool off ?

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    1. I have made complaints here in my blog multiple times. I can take it when at the hey days he wanna feel superior but when i am feeling small and shitty he still disregard my feelings just to make a point? How weak more he wants me to feel?

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  3. Different people has different ways viewin one problem or situation. Perhaps his method of being a caring friend isn't what you are expecting. Probably he doesn't know how to choose his words to comfort you or he doesn't know what kind of gesture is acceptable to you. But from the way you have described him, he does seem like some one who cares about you and didn't walk or stay away from you. Maybe you should just give both some time to figure this out. Meanwhile, it's always harsh to breakup a friendship, unless you think it is not worth keeping anymore. The decision is in your hands (:

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    1. I know what you mean. That's why everyone in this world are different. You know my problem is not with his advice. It's how he stand strong to prove a point. Just like if i tell him.."Let's end this friendship now" and i walk away. Would he not question or feel anything but instead sit there and don't move cause he should feel contented that he ever met me?

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  4. You are welcome. You do know that we don't know your friend well but try to breakdown the situation and scenario to you so that you can consider to look/understand from another prospective. Probably wanting to win in everything is within him. But I'm sure he has more good attributes in him. Try to remember why you choose to befriend him at the first (:

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    1. Haahaha... i wantd sex from him. The first time when i saw him...ahahahha...then many stuff happen along the way. Well i don't know if this friendship is worth saving or not but i am at least giving him a lesson.
      Actually he wouldn't learn cause after i walked away yesterday..he texted me and say..."please don't feel humiliated. If i say sorry would you feel better?"

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    2. Really? humiliated?? where did that come from and "If i say sorry?" NOT "I am sorry?" he still doesn't know what went wrong and he stills wanna "save" his ego by asking me should he apologize?? I laugh alone sitting at the playground yesterday night!!

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    3. OH DCG please don't think that i am screaming here...i am actually very calm and kinda felt de-stressed here...kinda felt lighter...in a way...am also smiling here.

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    4. All I can say, your friend is funny. But he's younger than you, right? (:

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    5. Nope he is one year older than me.

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    6. Hmmm... Tired of "analyzing" him. Lol... Well, I'm sure you know what's best for you!! (:

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    7. Hey... Where's the photo of your artistic work? ;p

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    8. Hahaha.... blek :P ...it's a defect...not showing...



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    9. You can't/shouldn't judge your work. Hahahahaha... Come... Let's show ;p

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  5. Best friends~ we laugh, we had fun, we argued, we fought, we dump each other, we got back... even beter than a bf dont you think?

    C=

    Go do something else... =)

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