There is a power surge the other day. Fried all of my Apples's cables. So I can't on my laptop. I can't charge my iPad. That's why I have not been posting anything. Besides, work kinda take up most of my time. After a while there, I don't feel as lousy as before already. Cause manage to learn some stuff. I'm surprised that I can endure the embarrassment. If last time, my ego would take over me and I won't bow to anyone.
Maybe it's in different field. Maybe this time I know I went in as a blank canvas. Maybe because I know that everyone knows about my flaw and everyone knows I have zero knowledge in this field. This makes me realize that how much freedom I could get from being honest. I remember last time, when ego takes over me. I pretend to say I know how to do stuff even though I have no idea what to do. So after that I felt stress all week trying to figure out how to do it and end up looking stupid and ugly. Well actually, being honest always gives people nothing but intense freedom.
I think I may have liked my brother inlaw's bussiness partner. Dangerous area there. I hope this is just a feel good feeling and I hope I won't go plunging down falling in love with him. I think he is a straight guy who doesn't know he himself is gay. Just my speculation. He is way too proper to be straight. Anyway, I might be wrong.