Friday, August 17, 2012

Picture? Crushed

No I am not that strong. I can't do it no matter how i try. I am feeling like an ice cold soul drifting through the hottest desert. It's because he kept on talking and talking and talking about himself and suddenly he gave me a picture of himself to keep. I felt crushed!! I don't know what does this mean? I know straight guys from his country holds hands even as friends. It's like a culture clash. Does he meant it in a Malaysian way or Nepalese way? He even speaks of future...like travelling together and all..but he says after three years lah. This left me stranded. I felt like i am in a mummification process that happens in thousand of years all in an hour and it kept repeating every hour. I am afraid if i confess i might jeopardize our date for dinner in a few days time. I really can't bare to loose this "thing". I use to say that always be contented and things will work out naturally. It's really different when you are really in the situation. Suddenly you felt really obnoxiously lost. 

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  1. He is giving so many weird signals.. =/

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    1. Yeah and i wish i could understand it. :(

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  2. I think you are worrying too much and maybe over analyzing? Do you have any good buddies to test your script? Maybe you should do so. But yeah, giving you a copy of his photo might be something people do where he's from. Hey... Now you can ask to take photo together and later print the photo and give a copy to him as a farewell gift (or one of the gifts you intend to give other gifts)!!! (;

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    1. I have an ass hole friend who actually totally went against my decisions to confess then when he sees my hands shakes while talking about 7E ..he flip over and ask me to confess the next day. In a way making me more confuse and he is just making things worst between 7E and me. By talking nonsense. Ish!!! It's not that i don't want to keep things simple...but you and i know how sensitive this could be. One little wrong move may trigger disaster. In this case it matters so much.

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    2. I know. Probably you are the introvert kinda guy. Well, as I always say, follow your heart and do not regret whatever action(s) you chose. Well, I added the last part of not regretting. But yeah, at the end of the day, you are living your life and no one else. If you follow what people say/suggest blindly, you have to bare the consequences (drama a bit but you should know what I mean).

      So, cheer up. It's not the end. Besides, he's still around. Don't talk like he's gone back ;p

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    3. I follow. I follow my heart. Did i mentioned to you that he has to leave earlier now. On Thursday morning 2a.m I am still following my heart. Only that on the confession part is being dalayed a bit.

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  3. http://youtu.be/jBj5OhMFzUg

    Hehe.

    And if you need someone to art direct your music video, call me ya.

    :)

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    1. What is there to direct when it's only eye, tears and cheek when i listen to the song. I am glad i hug you so many times virtually. :P Thanks Xing. Thanks so much.

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  4. Giving a picture could mean so that you don't forget him. Or maybe just as a way for him to say something. I think confess only when you're truly ready. But don't wait too long. ;)

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    1. Days have passed...everything could mean something and everything seems to mean nothing at all...base on these few days. Not gonna wait long...will really handle with care. Thank you AD.. Thank you. :)

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