Attempt.

 My cousin sister ask me to make a farewell card for her colleague. So i attempted a Pop up card. It's a rollercoaster pop up card.

When its unexpected.

We were drinking at this restaurant near my place. It's interesting when you are chatting with someone and he has a hard on. I was chatting with this friend and suddenly i can see a trail of meat pointing downwards in his pants. It was damm sexy, even though HE by person is  not that attractive. But when that happened it changes everything. He looks damm sexy from my side of the view. 

To think of it, i don't think many actually get to see a real hard dick in a pants like that. I mean yeah in porn or pictures in the internet, yes, but a real life one? I think i never really seen it.  Maybe i am always too excited every time to actually "SEE" anything when things like that happen. Usually, in seconds i am already on my knees!!! ..................(thanking god) lolzzz..

I don't know how? The next thing i realized my hand is already on his lap and my finger is scratching his penis head. Where we sat? it was quite dark and amazingly it's like that area is set for it to happen. As i scratch his penis head, we still talk like nothing is happening. I mean there is no acknowledgment on both sides. We just continue talking, but my hand is touching him. His pants then are getting wet from the over spilled of his pre cum. It gets quite intense that his head begin to throb. I don't know why both of us didn't go searching for a place to perform the deed. We just sat there and continue chatting. 

I can even feel his pulse when i rest my palm on his penis. After a while his head begins to swell. That means he is about to cum.  Immediately i start scratching  the top edge of his head. It was wet with pre cum that area, so it makes my  touch felt close to real. Suddenly..... pooff* he came and i could feel it shooting against his pants. I stared right into his eyes when that happens. He didn't even twitch a bit!!! but his penis was ejaculating out of control, like a machine gun. It was crazy hot when that happens. It felt so scandalous that i feel like we were two lusty blood hungry vampires starring at each other!!. 

 Then i open my mouth and ask him "can i suck you now?" He nodded and we went searching for a place. 

The thought of how he is able to be so calm above and yet at the same time down below it pulses like a worm on hot plate. It bloody drives me crazy. That was crazy crazy hot!!

STATELESS - I'M ON FIRE

Yikes

I met a guy the other day via Grindr. He is straight acting . Slim almost skinny. Small fine built and got a bloody huge fat trunk for a small guy like him. It's almost not proportionate if you ask me. All these turns me on big time. So with such attributes... looks doesn't matter anymore. I was excited. 

I can't wait to suck dry this guy. Until he told me that he is a bottom. Pure bottom. I never knew that a bottom doesn't need to be sucked. REALLY?? Really doesn't need to be sucked. I only does oral. i don't anal. He was disappointed. That's a big mystery to me. All these while i thought being suck is quite joyous. lolzz....  I don't get it that a guy doesn't needs a blowjob. To him, being suck is almost martian. I got to make him hard for seconds but he didn't came. No matter how i tried, because he felt weird seeing a guy sucking him. He was damm sweet though, when he is high he must hold hands. I didn't know that turns me on. lolzz..... Anyway Owh gosh....A guy doesn't need to be suck?  It's still a mystery to me. 

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I love this picture above. I really love the equal clash of both sexes. I think that is damm sexy, where there are touches of femininity and the masculinity is still there. Such synchronization are hard to achieve. Just like managing life itself. There must be just enough of everything, just to appear as normal. To look better? That's, extra effort if you are not born with such privilege.

Anyway i started blabbing about such stuff cause i am angry at my mom who messed up the living room right after i have clean it up!! Lollzzz....... It just makes my effort seems irrelevant. My mom likes to hang the laundry in front of the house and she'll hang it in the living room if it's not dry. She doesn't want to hang it at the back of the house out of convenience. So it's just like you spend hours doing the make-up on your face but, before you go out you dap on the pimple cream on your face. 

It's so tiring that i have to go through these in my own home. I just don't wanna quarrel anymore. it's damaging and it eliminates all the effort that we've give in to bond. It's really not easy to synchronize. It's really tiring that every time i have to suit up my armour right before i step out of my ROOM. I have to always be on guard. Be on guard not as in be prepared to fight, but it's to be prepared to take in as much shit as possible so that i don't transform into a samurai and karate kick my mom!! 

HEY hey

 Give me a great conversation and love me. 

Lolzz... that seems desperate. Maybe i am. Maybe i am. Maybe i am just frustrated of the amazing identical "everyday" that i am going through. What happen to everyday is a brand new day? Everyday seems to be exactly the same. Even the customers that enters where i hang out too are all the same. To make it worst... they even dress the same everyday!!! (uniforms.) I hang out at 7e now these. (to the ones who knows, it's not the same one) this one is nearer to the park. 

As i've mentioned my "everydays" are not very exciting. So there is this uncle who is there drinking every night at the pub two shops away. He walked by today and he has to make my day gloomier by asking me a question.  " Why are you here everyday?"  (WITH a disgusted face) I was quite insulted with that face. All i know is that i could smell my underwear and scratch my crotch there if i want to. I just don't understand how could someone bare to hurt such innocent souls??

 At the mean time. I hope i would meet more genuine and sincere friends. When you know one person long enough, their stripes begin to show. Everyone that i know now are all jerks!! Taking advantage of me every single chance they had. I've repeated this so many times and i thought maybe thats the only one, but it keeps on coming. Am i a jerk magnet? I wanna jerk something else then!!! lolzz....  I hope i'll meet more genuine humans soon. 

I think that a great conversation does wonders. Nobody wanna talk anymore though. Thats sad. Be organic Make a new friend a day guys!! (Che wahhh) lolzz...... Have a great great week ahead people. 

My Friend.

I always have this dream of being together with this one friend. He is away in Singapore. we've never spoken for nearly 10 years. Yes it's true that i've had crush on him during high school but it has been years. Chances of me thinking of this guy yearly is near to zero. So weird that i always had dreams about him. Worse. it's the kind of dreams that would leave you feeling sexy and throbbing when you are awake. Is the big guy up there trying to tell me something? Wants me to look for my friend perhaps?? Or it's his way of telling me... not to worry, cause that's my future. Hahah.... hmmm... how i wish it is .and ... i'll pray very very very hard. 

Hmm.. i find my self turned on easily recently. anything basic is enough to turn me on. Like the slightest bulge appearance. The simple nose tip smelling the penis. Even just with the ULTRA slow lips sucking can make me cum. It's like after drinking. When your whole body felt warm and sensual. I felt it the whole day. Just the other day, a guy sat in front of me wearing a soccer shorts with his legs wide opened, is enough to make my head wet. Compare to last time... it's only when there is a visible bulge  or a visible penis line then only i would have reactions. Well...It's either he is killer sexy or i am just a whore on heat.