Super Power, I Need.

I am feeling otherwise. What ever signals he is sending, maybe he didn't  but as of his reactions. ...i am reading it as there is something else there. I know these are the "Usually" "Wrong" or "Misinterpretation" when a gay guy loves a straight guy. Suddenly "Everything" seems to meant something right? I felt a vibe from him. When i am with a friend he shut himself down and act that he is not friendly to me like he is part of the cashier. But when i am alone he gives me a vibe like i am standing in an inviting beautiful garden. The air is fresher. lighter and the lights are brighter with pretty dews. My friend is calling me a liar for saying that he talks that much to me. This guessing game..is driving me nuts. I might just shoot the question..later at 4.33am. Super Power now would be a good time to come to me.

It's Really something.

I have decided to let these following days to be as normal as possible. I rather we stays as friend. I dare not gamble on it. But as plain as i want it to get? the more thick the feeling grows. These days i have to gut myself ever more when i am walking towards him. It's just pure massive feeling of fond. Everyday it grew. Everyday my stare towards him gets more intense. I am surprised myself that sex is not what i want. Everyday my nerves trembles when he greets me. My hands shakes. I can feel my body trembles. I think i need super power to contain myself. 

Whatt?

Have you ever felt dumbfounded? I was at Starbucks alone. Sat beside a group of people. They seem to chat about stuff that are more detailed. For the first time i have nothing to add to what they speak of. It's like i am from out of this world. lolzz...... Then  in that group the least attractive one ends up to be the most desirable ones and the most attractive one just stood there smoking. Hmm... profoundly surprised!!

Really? What would this be?

Here i am wooing a straight guy hoping that miracles do happens. Then there another straight guy is wooing me. Then an accident happened. Well more like a transaction for an unofficial sex partner.

In the mids of wooing this precious 7E...i do still distribute fliers out there...hoping to get attention from my own species. A more realistic conquest and logically makes more sense. Then a straight guy responded to my fliers. Hahhaha... yay!! lucky me. Then it turns out that this straight guy fits almost all my criteria of my prince charming. Nothing comes conveniently. Already demanding me to buy stuff for him. Actually buying stuff is not a problem but you wanna "make" me buy it for you after the 3rd time meeting? Hmmm.... 

Then there is this unofficial sex partner. Total opposite of what i would like my life partner to be. Hang out together quite a lot and grew to dislike him as a person. I think he has an ugly soul. But as a friend he is okay. Sexed a few times due to "helping" each other out. That is like  years ago. Never had sex after that and i always avoid it cause i think that his soul is disgustingly ugly. He wanted to see a picture of my friends dick. I don't wanna show cause he actually met the owner of that dick before. I refuse. He sort of begged me and couldn't get off that subject. We were in the car beside a playground at that time. At Night. So i know he didn't had sex for a long time already. So to change the subject, i grab his bulge in a playful way and sort of like scratch it. What else? He got hard and wanted a bj. So it's a deal.

 After that i left my ring in his car, and he left his ring in my room. The next day..when i text him for my ring....when i press send...at the same second...his text came in. Asking for his ring. Then he text again saying that this is like a curse. It's like we exchange lovey dovey ring.  I replied..."Just shut the fuck up and return me my ring!!" ahahah...so mean of me but i don't wanna thought about it and jinx it. Owh...no...no..no... 

It's almost comical how things happens sometimes. 

WHY? What would this be?

It's because he doesn't go all homophobic. It's because he doesn't demand. Most of all it's the respect he gave me.Who would thought this would turn out to be so desirable that it trembles me. Some childish cheeky move at first ..now became so invested. Who would thought he would  turn out to be more beautiful than the first time i saw him. I hope i don't embarrassed myself and screw this up by making some irrelevant move.  

What would this be?

I told myself not to think about it. The days are getting closer. I thought i could take it. 

Hot

 Was at 7E just now and i don't know why today i chatted quite long with him. When i reach a guy was talking with him leaning against the ice cream cooler. Then he saw me so he went away. While i was there another guy came in and wanted to chat with him. He did chat a while but that guy saw me there so he went off after a few chats. After 10 minutes, another guy came in and chat with him too, Then another. He was torn cause he don't know he should speak to which guy... ..including me. I am glad he didn't leave me to chat with them (blushing) So sweet. He just kinda chat with them a while but then he came back to chat with me leaving them there. Hahhaah Felt nice a bit but I don't wanna make him to be in a difficult situation. So i say bye and left. Hmmm...so many rivals yeah?? lolzzz...