How?

How my reaction would actually be? Will i cry? Will i just keep quiet? Will i be okay? I'm really afraid of my medical results. I miss Aba at these times. If only i could text him now. I really feel sad that i lost Aba's number. Aba, if you ever read this, i really missed you and i really hope you'll contact me again. Seriously.
I have been happy this few days. despite the shocking news. I somehow made my decision to be happy and i actually have this urge to help the helpless. Not physically of course. I would want to earn as much as i could and figure out a way to help all helpless eternally. Hmmm.....