Continuation from yesterday's post.

Later, at the next stop. more people are pouring in. We have no choice but to make space for other people. I took my bag up and hug my bag now. Thank god my bag was light. But anyhow, at any time i would only use one hand to hug my bag. It's something I'm used to. A naughty hand. Ha ha ha ha...... In this case, The door was on my left and my right is at the corner. So i use my right hand to hug my bag. I adjusted my position and put down my left hand and wanted to tuck my thumb in my pocket. As i was about to tuck, my hand got caught, squeezed between the door and that guy;s crutch!! Our eyes caught and a retract my hand!! (STUPID) (something i regret almost instantly.)  The push doesn't stops there. He got even closer when everyone at the door are pushing. Some passengers actually can't get up at the end. While it happens, I'm in awe. Suddenly my neck tightens, my nose sharpens and my eyes were shut. (you know it's those "shut" where your eye lids giggles?) I swear i felt sweat flowing down my neck. I realized his face is beside my face i can smell his neck. and i'm actually smelling  BVLGARI BLUE.  The one perfume that i categorized as "PHEROMONES" of men. !!!!! I don't even dare to open my eyes. That moment was stunning and sexy. I think i was shaking a little. I felt dizzy and everything seems to be in a slow motion. Everything is just so fiction at that moment. I cannot stop breathing IN. I think i may have steams coming out of my mouth. I dare not open my eyes, cause at the same time i don't want "this" moment to disappear. My imagination went stealth and fast. Then it stops, cause i felt a few cold drips of water dripped on my foot. I still didn't open my eyes, but i lifted my foot and try to wipe it off my foot. As i wipe it, i realized that the water is actually my pre cum. cause the  trail is from above my knee, that is from under my shorts. I didn't realize that i was actually throbbing and oozing pre cums. Ah... that sent me blushing big time. As i moved my hand back into position, i purposely brush across his crutch. Of course my eyes were opened then. He actually looked at me when my hand touches his crotch. i quickly close my eyes, when he looked. I was scared, I just continued breathing. Then suddenly i realized the tip of my nose is touching his ear. I opened my eyes when i felt it, but he didn't move a bit. In fact i think he is trying to caress his ears at my nose. I backed a little bit, cause as much as i desired it, we are still in a train. I can't see his eyes, as our face is almost side by side. I can hear him breathe. I think I'm breathing fire at that time. I cannot explain how disgustingly sensual that moment is. All this while i actually didn't realize that his hand is just beside my bulge. I thought it was my bag that my groin was banging as the train move. I knew that because he suddenly conveniently moved his hands in circular mode on my bulge. As I'm hugging my bag above, and his hands are underneath, so no one can see what he does. I think at that time my mouth were opened and i have to breath. He then actually took my hand and place it on his bulge. All this happened without us looking at each other. Froze for a moment then i started to play with his bulge. I scratched slowly and softly at every slight bulging thing i felt. Then i realized he moved a little, every time i scratch this part near his pocket. So i guess, that should be his head and that would be his sensitive spot. That means.... that's where i should attack. ha ha ha...... I think he did suffered a little, he starts to breath harder and harder. Well.... he did tortured me as well, but he didn't know. Cause my weak point, is him caressing me softly. Feeling his big warm palm, squeezing and teasing me softly. It got me electrified and yes.... yes.... i actually came. I have a hard time controlling myself when i came. I can't even stand straight. I came so much, i don't even dare to see how much cum is on my foot. I guess he knew after that, cause i tend to have this sudden shock when i shoot. He didn't stop after that, he continue caressing me. It turned me on big time. Well, as i am too attacking him at his weak point. I moved my hand further up, as i hope is his penis head. I started to scratch with two fingers in circular mode and my thumb slightly below. Time to time I'll squeeze it hard a while. Then suddenly his leg moved a little, he hold my dick quite hard and he placed his head on my shoulder, like he is fainting or something.  But i could feel the tense in my palm. At that moment too, i was stunned, cause we were in a train. Thank god, no one actually bothered to look. I think. This is by far, the hottest sex i've ever had!!! Wait!! does this considered as sex? LOL.........Of course, there is a second session. We did exchange numbers too, but i didn't text him. Due to my condition now, medically i mean. I don't think i'm fit to it. besides there are some points that i don't like about him, during the second session. He is kinda dominant and lazy. ........

Again i forget the date?

I lost track of the dates. Sorry guys, Had some prob back home. My mom was admitted to the hospital. I laughed when i heard the news. What else could have happened? In fact my previous blog i wrote but didn't post was "Tear me apart" That's so back street boys or N'Sync. Hahah....... Well anyway thank god nothing worst happened. My mom turns out to be severe food poisoning and dehydrated. So i have to go home. By myself. My sis can't make it and my second sis is working , flew to Australia. So i am the only one who could do the trip.
I crawl up early in the morning to catch the train. Was a bit worried as i can't see well. As it was a working day, so the train is full in the morning. I wore a shorts and a shirt. I buttoned right up to the collar as my neck has some red spots, due to the reactions to my medications. I almost forget how pack the train would be. To my worst fear, i forget to wear my underwear. Since i'm not working now these, and i'm always at home. So i seldom wears my underwear. So i ACTUALLY forget to wear my underwear. Lucky me, the shorts i wore wasn't a tight one. It's like a cargo shorts. So it's loose and wide but the rough material keeps on brushing my head. Hmmmm.....
Okay, so i got in the train. Plenty of aunties and i don't see any cute guys around. As i am almost like a bear who just came out of my hibernation are quite eager....... dissapointed!!! so i tried to stand near the door as women doesn't excite me. Then too bad i can't make it to the door. I have to stand a few person away from the door. As some lady goes off the train i make my way to the door. So like after 4 stops it's finally my turn to lean on the door. Looking at the views reminds me of many stuff. Then usually at the 6th stops it will be tighter, the following stops usually have many passengers. So everyone is standing closer and closer. It was getting more and more uncomfortable. Right in front of me is a girl, her height is right up to my nose only. Imagine if it gets any tighter i would have to smell her hair. OMG!!! I kept my head tilt up and try to face out to the door's screen. But the way i stand before made it quite impossible to turn much more, so i'm leaning with my back flat on the side of the door. Suddenly there is this sudden push from up front. So i looked angrily across and it happens to be a guy who pushed. I hate it when people does that in a train. So i frowned and stared. He did the same, stared a while but he looked away first. I was kinda shocked cause it didn't occur to me that people around me has change since i came in just now. Later i realized, it was actually that girl who is being rude. She doesn't want to move even a little, to give space. It's no wonder that guy pushed her. Errr... i think i,ll continue tomorrow. I just took my medication. I don't think i'm typiing right. I'm so sleepy now. Yawn....

it Meant Loads

It meant loads when you see people starts to comment in your blog. Thanks Dee and JB. I don't know why, but i celebrated!!! Ha Ha..... nuts!!  Gardening is like a routine now. Every morning i will mater the plants and feed my fishes. I wonder why all these while i don't actually listen to my songs when i do gardening? It;s no wonder i felt bored sometimes. Went to the station to get ciggy and had a drink with my sis after that. I missed those times. Where you sit and roll your eyes around looking at cute guys. Now that my eyes are cloudy and sick, every guys are cute. Now i actually judge them by body shape and dressing instead of their cute looks. It's just i can't see where my eyes focused. That's why i don't look at their face so much now these. People will think I'm crazy for starring so long. Anyways, the day out are quite fun. Except for this cafe owner who like to tease me. You know these, playful old man. he always likes to stand behind me and scratch my shoulder. if I'm any wittier i'll use my shoulder to push his bulge already. He,s lucky i don't like him. I actually finds him annoying. Why not any of his staff does that to me? Ha Ha ..... Oh! i went through my dvd's collections yesterday and saw Harry Potter again. I actually forget how much i fancy Harry. Sometimes i find myself nuts. I tends to fancy weird stuff. Harry's sheer dorky-ness actually gets me excited. Hmmm..............

16th Sept 2010

Planned to jog today. I woke up 3 hours late. So ambitious huh?. Lol..... what a failure. Anyway try to do gardening but all the plants are aged and start to look a bit old. so i have to re-plant. Re-pot and rearrange the plants. Kinda bored, but then again, can't wait till they all look pretty again.  In the afternoon i went to McDonalds for lunch. I forget that today is a public holiday. So the place was full. Full of young gorgeous looking people and i went there with my not so proper clothes. I'm quite sweaty and smears of soil around my t's. Wonder if i look hot or snob. Nuts!!  Never realized that there are so many good looking waiters there as well. Hmm.... i guess i would be going there quite often then..huh?? Anyway, i can't wait till i really start working out. As i remember... it felt quite good. Endorphine .

Lunch

Had lunch with my parents the other day. It was only 4pm so actually it's neither lunch or dinner. I had so much food before, hence i'm not hungry. So i didn't order any food. Just drinks. Then my dad didn't eat much too. BECAUSE he thinks i'm saving money to pay for his food. What a situation!!! I don't know what to say. When i say i'm okay. I'm not eating cause i'm just not hungry. He just say okay he understands but he just stops ordering. Same goes with my mom. I'm touched that they care but sometimes it gets irritating when they over do it. Sometimes it hurts when you see two old people getting old and THIN. hOW on earth could things happens like that?? I never foresee things would come to this. Who would. I see my self at a stable times now, when i was 18. What would happen next??

Mom and Dad

Mom and Dad came over the weekend. Went out everyday and eat and eat and eat. I think i have a whole weeks food in my stomach now. They just left this evening. My dad who usually doesn't really speak to me actually gave me a hug and ask me to take good care of my self. It's nice. I almost cried. He never done that. Everyone tried to be "normal" and watched Resident Evil. As usual i can't see much but for the sake of everyone, i went along. Can't have everyone sacrificing for me all the time. So went for dinner and to the movies after that. Well, it's not that bad, i still could see Wenworth Miller. I also saw this other guy, i think he is married or maybe he is with his girlfriend. Streaking hot body. He wears a t-shirt and a soccer shorts. Nothing he wears are tight but you know, it,s like once you see you know he has a body to die for.
This story is kinda weird. I noticed him cause he is standing in front of me, with his back facing me. Everyone was sort of waiting there foe the cinema 9 to open. We waited for like 10 minutes and of course i kept looking at this hot guy. I know he did turn around and looked else where as when people wait they will tend to browse around. Nothing was gay about him. He is lovingly holding his girls hand once in a while. Finally when they finish housekeeping they open the cinema. So everyone take turns to go in. Coincidentally he lined up beside me. When we were about to go in, i let him pass first. It was like in slow motions, he passed by me, smiling, acknowledging me for letting him pass by me and he never took off his stares. It's so mesmerizing as i can see  better when it's near. His gaze or maybe stares were longer than usual. What was that?? It's really weird. Are the straights, straight now these? Or  my gay radar has gone bad?? After that stare, i felt so thirsty after that stare. I can't stop drinking my Coke. It's so bloody hot.

So i did the dishes.

The next morning. LoL... Two and a half years ago when i bought this house. I have seen the tenant that lives directly opposite the beck of my home. That is like 10 feet apart. Two and a half years i saw him the second time. So odd. The back of our home has an alley , like 5 feet below. So every home has a few steps of concrete steps to go down. When i was doing the dishes, i don't know why this opposite guy opened his back door and sat on the steps. Directly in front of me. Whats worst is that he's wearing shorts. I was well tortured cause i can't see that far. I'm quite sure i would see his bulge if my eyes were at 20/20 Grrrr..... Washing greasy stuff with a stiff is no fun at all.. I can't even make sure if he is hot or not. But as usual i just smile to everyone i see to acknowledge their presence. I wished he talk to me, but he didn't. I always have theses wild kinky imagination of sneaking into my neighbor's house. Well, time would come. When the right guy wink and chat with me. :)

Hmm.. what's the date today?

My eyes pressure are still up. If this goes on i have to under go a surgery. Frustrating!! Anyway life goes on and sometimes i wonder how does a gay couple works. Do the dominant ones acts likes he is a king like the straight couples? I wonder does a gay couple would do the dishes together and lay out the dinner together? Not just sit there and wait to be seated like straight couples?? I hate these straight guys. What era is this? I have two sister. One always would cook at home and pack some to bring over to her "king's" place and come back the next day with the Tupperware not washed. This happens EVERYDAY!!! and the other sister will always lay out the food for her "king" and after eating he just leaves to the living room. I can see waves at my eye brows when ever he does that. Isn't it a manner to help to clean up the dishes?? Why oh Why???

The Greens

I have been gardening since i have stop working. I actually realize that pretty artificial like plants do exist. They need great attention. Phuuhh...... It is hard work but when you look at it, it pays off. Hahhah.... Days has been up and downs. I kept reviving parcels and also invoices fro various dispatch companies as my sister has moved her office back home. Was well excited. Well naughty thoughts in my head. Reality? They smell like pigs and not even one is visually attractive. There is one though. He is not good looking at all. I don't even want to look at him when i receive stuff from him. When he starts talking, my dick twitch a little. lol........ not a sexy voice but a very obedient but firm voice, at the same time corny. Hmmm..... hard to explain but the combination of his talk and his voice. Blasting. He makes me go all horny in a second, and I'm not wearing underwear. Imagine how fast i have to fleet!!! I do realize that i am bad sometimes, totally ignore the ugly ones, but once i notice there are some stuff in them that are to my liking. No matter his hands or the way he hold something or the way he walk or the way he speaks or him being gentlemen or even knows to takes care of other people. I will surely go GA GA over him.